"C'mon, man! I just wanna go hoooome!"

I'm currently in the hospital. I have recently discovered that I have both gall stones and pancreatitis. Also, I have to get surgery to have my gall bladder removed. Yay. It is currently 3:39am and I have been here since 11:00pm. There's been a lot of waiting. And thankfully, Justin has been here right beside me the whole time. Had it not been for the "suggestion" by Keine that I go to the hospital and get this pain checked out, I would never have found out about these ailments. So, thank you to both Justin and Keine.

I don't want to write anymore tonight because my hand hurts where they put that stupid IV, which is not even in use at this moment. So, I'm done for now. More to come tomorrow when I'm still in the hospital for observations.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Ranting!!

There will be many little rants on things that are pissing me off. Or things that make me happy. Or things that have been on my mind. So, just be prepared.

I hate that I've worked so hard to get the reputation of "a good friend that doesn't have drama", just to ruin it with one dumb mistake. I feel like such a bad friend. I know that I made a mistake and that it was a very stupid mistake at that. I think about it every day. All parties that were actually INVOLVED are totally over it. But, the person I hurt clearly is not. And I don't care about the other party who was involved, I care about this person I hurt. I've always been the person who would never hurt a friend and who would always be there for them. Now I've gone and made a dumb mistake and hurt a friend that I really care about. I'm in the process of trying to fix it. But, there's only so much that I can do in this situation. Ugh!! I just HATE that I did that! I feel like a terrible, terrible friend and I am so sorry. I just want to go back, but I can't; I have to deal with it. So, that's what I'm trying to do. Fix it and move on (hopefully). And that's the end of my rant about me being a bad friend.

Okay. How stupid do you have to be to not break up with your significant other, when SO MANY people have told you that they're cheating on you?! A good friend of mine is in this situation. At least 6 of us have told him that his girlfriend is cheating on him. He knows deep down that it's happening. But, he keeps saying that he doesn't know what to believe. I HATE that!! Why don't you know what to believe?! 3 of your BEST FRIENDS have told you this! You're not gonna believe them?! His girlfriend's own SISTER told him that she's cheating, but he still "doesn't know what to think". Seriously?! She's putting him through so much pain, he should just end it. Poor guy. I love him, but he can be so stupid sometimes. Ugh!! And so ends my rant of stupid friends.

I hate when friends try to turn you against other friends. I have two friends that really dislike each other. They always try to point out the flaws in the other to try to "persuade" me to hate the other. I've told both of them that I consider both of them my good friends and that I may not always agree with everything they say about the other, but I'll always be there to listen. But, they still try to push it on me. I kind of hate it because just hearing it so much makes me believe it sometimes; and I KNOW it's not true! It's kind of unhealthy, but they're my friends and I love them, so I have to deal. End rant of friends hating friends.

The girl code. Who came up with that? Because I'd like to punch them in the face. This rule of "you can't date your friends ex-boyfriend...even if SHE broke up with HIM" is just stupid and creates so much unnecessary drama. Even a kiss is against the rules. I feel that if one girl says she's over a guy and another girl waits a suitable amount of time, she can go after him. She's over him, why not? Ugh, it's just so dumb! Now that I've said that, I can also totally understand where this person is coming from...but ONLY if it was an incredibly long and invested relationship. I guess there are some rules that we need to follow. But the "girl code" is one of the dumbest things ever invented. That's the end of the "girl code" rant.

I love how music can instantly change your mood. Clearly, I was in a pissy mood. But then "Here's To The Night" by Eve 6 came on and now I'm calm and reminiscent all of a sudden. I love that! Thank you, music! This is why I say that music is always there for me. It can always put me in a better mood. I just love it so much! Okay, that's the end of my rant on music.

Don't you hate when you're shopping for jeans and they don't have your size? I hate that so much. I was shopping for jeans the other day and they only had one type of jeans that was my size. I was desperately in need of jeans, so I had to buy two of the same pair. Oh well, it had to be done. This marks the end of my rant on shopping for jeans.

I hate when I invest so much of myself into a friendship, and the other person couldn't care less. I've invested so much time and so much of myself into a friendship because I think this person is pretty much the shit. But this person seems like they could really give a shit about how much I care about them. Ya know how sometimes when you meet someone, you know right away that you want to be friends with them? Well, that's how I was with this person. Right away, I knew that they were super cool and that they'd be really fun. So, I started to invest myself in being their friend. But they seem like they don't care about being my friend. They put very little, if any, effort into this friendship. Friendship is a two-way street, both people contribute. I just wish the other person would do the same. The end of my rant on friendship.

I hate when you think so much of a person that it impedes upon your life. Like, I could really enjoy a certain activity, but if this one person thinks it's lame, then I'll immediately start seeing it that way. Not completely, but little things will start popping up and then it'll eventually take over. I hate that, because it could make me give up on something that I really love. I need to work on that, because that's really not a good thing at all. That's the end of my rant on...who is controlling my life?

I absolutely HATE that I hold grudges. It ruins my friendships and other aspects of my life. It's so stupid! Why can't I just let things go? I wish I could just live in the present and forget about the past. I wish others could do the same. That was a very short rant on holding grudges.

I think I'm done ranting for now. If I come up with anything else, I'll just have to make another ranting entry. Haha.

Weekend Update....with Ellie

I haven't blogged in a few days. I am aware of this. I'm kind of okay with it, but kinda not. I have a lot to say, but there's a lot that I can't say. It's complicated. Whatev, here I go. Oh, P.S., there will be a few rants and tangents in this entry, so be prepared.

THURSDAY: Remember how I said I would be super pissed if I missed the class on jealousy? Yeah, well I missed it. I was super pissed. And because I missed my fave class, I was sure as hell not going to Psych. So I didn't go to any classes on Thursday. Oh well. I did other things on Thursday. I slept until about 3:00pm. Then I went to Meijer with Justin because he needed socks and I had to take back my V-neck shirts because they were huge. We were successful in finding these things. Then we went to SnyPhi for an early dinner. I went to Danielle's concert at 7:30pm. It was very good. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I was supposed to go to dinner with Kate at 9:00pm on this day as well. But Alexis was coming back in town and getting a bunch of people to go out for dinner with her, so we did that instead. That was fun. Awkward at times, but fun nonetheless. But, I was very shaken and a little upset, so I asked Jonathan if he could come over and talk for a little bit. He said yes, but it'd be awhile because he was doing something. So I decided to start reading my "Columbine" book while I waited. He arrived at around 1:30ish. We talked forever; he didn't leave my room until 6:00am. I loved every minute of it. :)

FRIDAY: Because I stayed up with Jonathan until 6:00am, I slept until 3:00pm. Then I started getting ready for Tenor Toast and dinner. Jonathan and Jack (who were looking very good) met me so we could wait for Chrissy to pick us up. When we got to the Tenor Haus for Tenor Toast, everyone was looking very good and all classed up. Then everyone left for Huddle and Kate, Keine, Laura, and I chillaxed while we waited for our reservation time to come around. We watched Baby Mama and Kate made us some Manicotti (very good). We finally left for PF Chang's around 8:30ish. Now, our reservations were for 8:45pm. We were not seated until 9:30pm...at the earliest. But we did get free appetizers out of our ridiculous wait. PF Chang's was delicious. The dinner was fun, awkward at times (of course), but still pretty fun. Then we went back to the Tenor Haus to enjoy some post-Huddle fun. That was super fun (no awkwardness at all).

SATURDAY: I slept until 3:30ish on Saturday. Then Jill came to visit and stayed the night with me. We went to Noodles with Alexis and some of the other Tenors. That was fun. Then Jess called to ask if I was coming to her Mexican Fiesta later. I told her Jill was here and she told me to bring her, so I did (Justin too). But we had to go back to my room to get Jill's ID. We went over to Jess' apt and stayed there for about 2ish hours. Then we went to McDonalds and were forced to stop and get Jill some Insomnia Cookies. When we got back to my room, we put in Spice World. I love that movie, and now so does Jill. Haha. When we looked at the clock, it was like 2:30am. Jill had to be up by 9:30am, so we went to bed. But, I started thinking about stuff so I stayed up until about 5:00am.

SUNDAY (aka TODAY): Jill and I woke up at 9:00am to go get her ID form the front desk. And Auntie Linda and Uncle Dawson were there at 9:30am to pick her up. I went back to bed at 10:00am. I slept until 5:30pm. That was probably a really bad idea, I'll probably be up forever now. Anyway, I had Kappa at 8:30pm and that lasted forever! We were there until 10:30ish. Afterwards, Jonathan, Kate, and I went to get Late Night in Brody. That was great! We talked about Preseason and marching band a lot. It was a really fun dinner, full of laughs. After dinner(which we did not end until 11:30pm), I came back to my room, watched some of the Olympics, and made some brownie batter for a midnight snack with Danielle. It's now 2:06am. I'm wide awake because I slept until 5:30pm.

Tomorrow is going to be a little busy. I have class from 8-9:50am. Then I'm meeting Justin (and hopefully Alexis) in the Union for lunch at noon. Then I get to chill until Math at 4:10pm. That gets done at 5:30pm, at that time I get to wait for 8:00pm to roll around. At 8:00pm, I'm having dinner with Kate. She gets off work at 8:00pm and I start at 8:30pm, so we're just meeting up. Yes, I finally get to start making money! My first day of work in the caf is tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, but I don't think it'll be too crazy. I won't get off word until close, so I'll be there for a while. Then I get to go home and pass out. Haha. Yeah, that's what tomorrow looks like for me.

The end.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Proud to be an Amercian

I've been watching the Olympics for the past 4 hours and what I've seen has made me incredibly proud to be an American. The athletic ability of these American Olympic representatives has me in awe. "(Fill in the blank) is the best (fill in the blank) in the world!" has come out of my TV so many times tonight, and each time they referred to an American athlete. I'm proud to say that I come from the same country as these great competitors.

Anyway.

Today did not go as planned/predicted. I slept through my WRA class AND lunch with Justin. Fortunately, I was able to go to office hours and turn in my paper. What a relief. And I don't think Dr.V is going to take off any points for the paper being 4 hours late. I mean, he didn't mention anything about it. So, it's reasonable to believe that, right?

After walking over to Bessey to turn in my paper, I went to the Union for lunch. Vicky happened to be there studying for our math quiz, so I ate with her. I made it a very brief lunch so I could get back to my room and study/nap/shower before class. Well, what ended up happening was me getting home at 2:00pm and going right to bed. I woke up at 3:00pm and hopped in the shower. It wasn't a fast shower, but it was no (as my dad would say) "Hollywood" shower. I was ready and out the door by 3:45pm.

I got to Wilson at about 4:00pm. I had not been on my computer all day, so I checked all my usual websites for a little part of class. Probably not a good idea to do during math class, my worst class ever, but it happened. Matt, one of the people from my group at DMA, sent all of us a message in which he said we should all have a continuous conversation. Naturally, I HAD to contribute right away. So, I ended up missing a bit of the lesson. I'll just get it from the book later. I did, however, take the quiz. I think it went okay; I knew some stuff and had no idea about other stuff. And going off of previous experience, I'm think a 50-60%. Not great, but I'll take it. The quiz took me about 10 minutes, so I was out of there by like 5:15pm.

I then went over to Justin's room so we could go to the mall. When I got there, he told me that Danielle (my roommate) asked if she could tag along. So, we had to wait for her. But I wanted to eat so we told her to meet us at the Union. However, she had to go to Meijer so she was just gonna meet us at the mall.

Justin had the exact shoes he wanted in his mind already, so we looked everywhere for the pair he was picturing. But, we couldn't find them, so he had to settle for some other ones. Then we found a super hot shirt and tie for him. I told him to buy so many shirt-and-tie combos JUST for the tie. Haha. They looked so good! Whatev, he got the combo I wanted, so ultimately, I win. Then we met Danielle. But not before something completely not-okay-with-me happened.

This is kind of a story within a story. Okay. Justin and I were walking to a store when we saw a little girl (couldn't be more than 2 or 3 years old) standing in the middle of the hallway(?), just looking around. We looked around for a parent and thought we saw her at a nearby stand, so we continued. But we weren't sure, so we kept an eye on her. The "parent" walked away without her, so we knew that wasn't her mom. We didn't know what to do. We stood there, watching the little girl, making sure she wasn't getting kidnapped, but not helping her. After a few minutes we decided that we HAD to do something. We walked over to this poor little girl, got on her level and asked where if she was lost. She responded in a meek little voice with, "Where's my daddy?" And right then, out pops a couple from behind a nearby gum ball machine and says, "That's why you don't run away!" and take the little girl. (This was her father, so don't be alarmed.) We were shocked at these parents. This girl was at most 3 years old and they were testing her?! She's 3! Just think how scared that little girl must have been!! I am appalled that they would do that to their own child! I just can't believe it. I will NEVER do that to my child. And, hopefully, neither will anyone else. Sorry, I'm done ranting now.

After that (which I am still very affected by), we met up with Danielle and then went to find me some jeans. We only found a very small selection and I was forced to get two of the same pair. Then I had to find a black, long-sleeved shirt for Campus Band. Of course, there were none in the womens section. I had to get a men's dress shirt. But, it was on sale, so I'm kind of okay with it. We then walked over to Meijer so Danielle could get a new phone and so I could get some men's V-Neck undershirts. (They just look so comfy and somewhat stylish!) Then we caught the bus to the Union and ate some pizza. (Yes, for the third time today.)

Danielle and I got back to our room at around 10:00pm. I checked all my sites and then took my Psych quiz. Sam and I decided that we should make the Mello-Tenor hang out a regular thing, so we notified our respective sections. We are both super excited about this. I can't wait until next Wednesday now. After organizing that whole thing, I turned on the Olympics and watched for about 4 hours. Now, here I am.

I am so so excited for COM tomorrow!! We're learning about jealousy. If you look up "jealous" in the dictionary, you'll find a picture of me. I'm a very jealous person, but apparently I'm really good at hiding it because a lot of people close to me don't know. Anyway, this class session should teach me a lot about it and ways to control it and stuff like that. And controlling it means that I won't have to feel bad so much. Therefore, I'm excited for it.

Also, at 2:30pm tomorrow, it is officially the weekend for me. This means I can start reading the books I bought yesterday! I'm really excited to start reading "Columbine" and learning what REALLY happened. Oh right, I'm talking about tomorrow. I have absolutely nothing to do until 7:30pm, which is when Danielle's concert is. I'm excited to hear some full orchestra music. I love it. When the concert is over, I'm going to dinner with Kate. That should be fun too. Unfortunately, dinner with Kate means that I have to miss PRIDE. But, I guess we're only making bracelets and stuff so it's no big. I go every other week anyway, I think I can miss one meeting. Yeah, so, tomorrow should be pretty chill and fun.

Speaking of "big" (go back and reread if you don't believe that I said it). Today is my Big's 20th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RACHELLE!! :)

I really don't want to sleep through any classes tomorrow, so I'm gonna hit the hay. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Reading for Leisure?

Today was a pretty good day.

COM 225 was amazing, as uzsh. I learned a lot about anger and grief today in that class. It was very interesting. Also, MSU is quickly becoming the top deception research university. That is so incredibly exciting to me, you have no idea! It's like our own version of that show "Lie to Me", right in my own backyard! I wish I could take more COM classes in my coming years at State, but all the good ones are only open to Juniors and Seniors in the colleges in which I am not. I'm actually really upset about that, I wanted to learn more about how people communicate and what it means and all that it entails. But, if I get to learn about Psychology instead of Communications, I'm totally okay with that. Anyway, I absolutely CANNOT wait until Thursdays class! We're going to be learning about jealousy. Why am I excited about that? Because I am a ridiculously jealous person and I want to learn why, how/if I portray it, and how I can control it. If I sleep through this class session, I will be so pissed words can't even begin to describe it. So, yeah, I'm really excited for Thursday.

Psych was dumb, also as uzsh. Wait. I lied. Actually we did learn about some interesting things having to do with memory. Apparently not interesting enough for me to remember though. Haha. I went on stumbleupon.com in class today instead of doing those flashcards and quizzes like I said I was going to do. But, I can always do those tomorrow.

Zack was unable to meet me for lunch, so I just went back to my room to start my paper. I got about half a page done before I had to go to Campus Band. Band was great! Kate sits closer to me and Brad now, so we had a little joke sesh going on for a bit. Well, Brad and I always have that going on, but this time Kate was included. Kate was unable to go to dinner tonight due to studying, (which I guess is actually kind of good because I had to write that stupid paper for WRA) so we rescheduled to Thursday at 9:00pm. Anyway, Brad had yet to have a Puczki today and I had yet to have one in my life, so he decided that we HAD to make a stop as QD on the way home and get some. They were delicious! Thank you, Brad!

When Brad took me home, I got my computer out right away and checked all my email and social networking sites. Then about 20 minutes later I left for the library to write my paper. It's done and not amazing, but it'll have to do.

So, in COM today, my prof told us about a book that shows what the shooters in Columbine were ACTUALLY like. Apparently we've been "sold" the complete opposite of what they were really like. Now, I know it sounds really morbid or whatever, but I kind of really enjoy the psychology of criminals, so the book was pretty much a "must read". In thinking about books, I remembered a book I read in August called "Hunger Games". It was really good and it was coming out with a sequel in September of 2009. This too was considered a "must read". So, in Psych today I went on Barnes&Noble.com to see if they had these books; they did. Today I spent $50.40 on books...that are not for any classes. The books I bought are "Columbine" by Dave Cullen, "Catching Fire" by Suzanne Collins, and "Shutter Island" by Dennis Lehane. You're probably wondering why I bought the book if the movie version of "Shutter Island" is coming out in a few weeks. Well, I don't do scary movies. I just don't. So, I thought I could probably handle the book. We shall see. I'll be sure to let you know how these books are. I'm actually really excited to read them, especially "Columbine".

Tomorrow. Let's see. I have WRA at 8:00am in which I have to turn that paper. Then I have lunch plans with Justin, probably around 11:30am-12:00pm-ish. Then hopefully a quick nap before I start studying for my math quiz. Then I'll go to Math class at 4:10pm and take a quiz. Then Justin and I are going to the mall to get him some shoes and a shirt for Huddle and me some jeans and a top for Campus Band. Then I think we'll probs hang for a little bit. When I get home I may watch a bit of the Olympics and then start reading for COM 225. Oh! I just remember I have to take a quiz for Psych! I have to fit that in somewhere tomorrow. Judging by that, my day should go pretty smoothly.

Btdubs, it's 2:34am and I'm in the library still. I just finished my paper and I thought that since the buses have already stopped running, why not blog? But, I think I'm done now. Everything I needed to say has been said. Oh wait, no it hasn't. Here's what I forgot: I barely thought about Saturday today. A couple times in band (of course), but that's it. I think I'm staring to be okay with it, I just need this person to respond. A quick text may be necessary tomorrow if they don't respond by like 8:00pm. But, yeah, I think I'm coming to terms with it, though I may need to talk to Jonathan about it again. Just to be sure. That's it. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

The Soundtrack to My Life

There are three (technically three) lines from Kid Cudi's song "The Soundtrack to My Life" that describe my life right now. "I got 99 problems and they all bitches." Haha, just kidding, that's not one of them. They are as follows: "I've got some issues that nobody can see" and "And all of these emotions are pouring out of me". I realize that there are only two lines there. There's a reason for that.

Apparently I forgot to blog on Thursday AND this entire weekend. I guess that's where I'll start. And I'll try my best to actually use paragraphs because I apparently don't know what those are.

THURSDAY: I slept through all two of my classes. So I was very unproductive class-wise. But, I did go to the Finance Committee meeting to see what that was all about. And after that I went to PRIDE with Justin. Then I went home and probably stayed up forever. I can't really remember because it was so long ago.

FRIDAY: My dad picked me up around 9:00am. He took me to Wilson really quick so I could turn in my Soc. Sec. card for the caf. Then we went home so I could do some laundry for free, return the stuff Kaitie left, and retrieve the stuff she forgot to bring me. I also briefly converse with Mr.Diroff, my HS band director, when I picked Kaitie up from school. He said that I might be able to come back and be an instructor at band camp this summer!

I really hope the dates for Pre-Season for the Spartan Marching Band cooperate with the date for Pre-Camp for the Zebra Marching Band. I always wanted to come back and instruct. I think it'd be really rewarding and I actually think that I could learn a lot just by teaching. I just hope I teach fundamentals and visual stuff rather than music because my musical abilities aren't exactly great. And visuals would be so cool for this show!

After I picked Kaitie up, we went to the store to try to find me some jeans really quick. We didn;t find any jeans but we found some girl scouts selling cookies. We bought two boxes of Tagalongs. Haha. Then we went home and about 20 minutes later, my dad took me back to school. Then I rushed to get ready for the Dischords concert.

Justin met me and Danielle at our room and then we had to try to battle the WWE traffic to get to the Wharton Center. We thought we were gonna miss the first couple of songs since we were 10 minutes late, but we were just in time! BPW opened the show with a solo of Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance". He was so good!! We heard some old and new songs. One of which featured Michal as the soloist on Michael Buble's "Haven't Met You Yet". He was amazing!! All in all, the show was great!

After the show, we went to Landon for some dinner because we were dying of starvation. We ran into Keine and her friend, Jess, while we were there. So we ate with them, well, we ate with Jess since Keine was gone and on the phone for a good portion of the meal. Haha. But it was totally okay, Jess is nice. Then they left us and we went back to Justin's room for 2.5. We then decided to go to the after-party that the Dischords were having, so we met up with Julie and a few of her friends at the Union and walked over together.

That party was ridiculous! There were a million people there, so we left kinda early. But not before I could get someone mad at me because of a joke I made. It really was a joke and was directed at a friend, but it was taken the wrong way (which is not new). But I tried to fix it by explaining myself and my intent. We shall see the outcome.

Speaking of jokes being taken the wrong way. How 'bout I just stop making jokes that could be taken the wrong way? Good idea. I'm really gonna try hard to work on that, because it's doing wonders to mess up my friendships. If I've learned anything from COM 225, it's that ALL communication is IRREVERSIBLE. You can't take it back. And that sucks. But you sure can try to make up for it. So that's what I'm going to do. So there's that.

Anyway.

SATURDAY: It was a very lazy day, Saturday. I think I slept until about 4:30pm. What can I say? I like sleep. Anyway, I pretty much just stayed in my room and watched some Olympics and stuff for awhile. Then Justin came over so we could meet Jonathan and Jack to walk over to the Tenor Haus together.

The Tenor Haus. When we first arrived, everything was good and there were no problems. The night progressed. I'll just give you key words because I am NOT explaining everything. They are as follows: funnel, Drake, finger cuts, nerf guns, Spring Break, slop, alumni, alone, kisses, slop, fun, pelvic-thrust circle, tears, friends, scraped knees, bad decisions, Jimmy John's, Apple, new friends, fun, and slop. I don't know how I feel about that night yet. At the time, it was good and fun. But looking back, I just don't know. (This is where the song comes into play) There are some things I can't stop thinking about, and I REALLY wish I could. Yeah, I'm just not sure how I feel about it yet. Though, talking to Jonathan made me feel sooooo much better. He's so good at that, and I love him for it.

I also met Jonathan's boyfriend, Jack, on Saturday night. He's sooo nice! I hope we hang out more in the future because he seems like a fun guy. So...shoutout to Jack! Haha.

SUNDAY: I woke up ridiculously early on Sunday. I texted Ryan to call as soon as he could. He called about 5 seconds later (what a best friend!). I desperately needed to talk to him. And we did, for about 2 hours straight. Then my fatigue hit me like a bus and I just HAD to go back to sleep. I did so for about 2 hours. I had some crazy dreams in those two hours. Some of them were actually pertinent to my life, which scares the shit out of me. Anyway, I woke up at 2:00pm so I could go to Justin's concert.

Well, technically, it was Justin, Amy, Rachelle, X, and a bunch of other people's concert. It was really good! I discovered that I kind of love the sound of an oboe, but I still hate piccolos. After the concert, Amy gave me and Justin a ride back to his room so he could change and we could go to a late lunch.

We ran into Rudi on our way to the caf, so we allowed her to eat with us. Just kidding, we totally wanted her there. We ate for about an hour or so and then Justin and I went back to his room. We chatted for a bit and then we decided that we had work to do and we parted ways.

When I got back to my room, I started thinking about stuff. It was not good. I was on the verge of tears. I decided that I could not wait to talk to Jonathan, so I called him and we went to dinner to talk before Kappa. He made me feel so much better about everything. By the end of dinner, I was laughing and I was almost completely okay with everything. We split up really quick to get our money for Convention and then met up to walk to Dem for our Kappa Kappa Psi meeting. I thought Kappa would make me feel even worse than I was feeling, but it actually helped and made me feel even better. After I got home from Kappa, I was in a pretty good mood. I tried to do my readings for WRA, but I just couldn't because I was so tired. But I managed to read about 10 pages while watching the Olympics until about 2:00am. Then Danielle and I went to bed. But, we ended up talking until about 3:30am. It was actually kind of good that we talked about everything we talked about, which was a lot of stuff. Serious stuff. We finally decided to go to sleep at around 3:52am or something.

MONDAY: I woke up at 6:30am so I could shower and be at WRA by 8:00am. I was so tired. I was falling asleep for the whole class. After class, I went home, checked all my email and social networking sites, and then went right to bed. I slept until 3:15ish. Then I went to Math class.

Math is becoming significantly harder. He's flying through everything. I can't get his notes down as fast as he says them. The material is becoming increasingly more difficult to understand. I'm only getting 50% on quizzes and tests. And we have another quiz on Wednesday. This class is going to kill my GPA, as if it didn't already suck enough what with getting a 1.0 in Econ last semester. I'm really starting to freak out about Math now. Hopefully my friends can help me out. I'd go to office hours, but his teaching method just doesn't work for me. I really hope I can figure something out.

After that class, I went to the Union to maybe get some work done before meeting Justin for dinner. I got no work done, but I was okay with that. I met Justin around 7:15pm in Landon. Kim was there too, so she ate with us. Dinner was pretty good. But, I had to get stuff done and so did Justin, so we parted ways once again. I went to the Union (because they have an unlimited amount of free Mountain Dew). I tried to get my paper going and I kinda did, I just didn't get as far as I wanted to. But, I started thinking about things again and had to talk to Ryan. Then Jess (my Jess, not Keine's) called and invited me to go to Coldstone with her and Zack. I needed to be cheered up, so I went. That was pretty good. Then I went home and called Mark. Ryan called right after I hung up with Mark and I still needed to talk to him about a lot of stuff, so we were on the phone for about an hour and a half. After that, I went on Facebook and such for a while. Then I remembered that I had a bunch of Psych assignments to do, so I did those. And now, at 4:14am, here I am.

I have class at 10:20am tomorrow, but I don't have to get up until 9:30am. I am really anticipating this class because we are learning about things that are incredibly useful in my everyday life. So, I really don't want to sleep through it...again. Then I have Psych which should be boring, but I'm just gonna do my flashcards and take my quizzes, so at least I'll be being productive. After class, I have about 4.5 hours before band starts. I might see if Zack wants to grab a late lunch in Shaw after our classes. When that's done, I'm going straight to my room to finish writing this paper for WRA. Then I have band. After that, I'm hopefully having dinner with Jonathan and Kate. On a side note, I just realized that if Jonathan went by Jon, then I would be having dinner with Jon and Kate tomorrow. Haha. Sorry, anyway, after dinner I'm going to continue writing my paper and I'm staying up and working on it until it's done. Yeah. So, that's my day tomorrow.

But, for now, I must sleep. It's either going to be a very uneventful sleep without dreaming or a very "thoughtful" and "self-discovering" sleep with dreaming. I can just tell. I kind of hope it's the former though. Sleep is for relaxing, not thinking. Well, I'm off to bed.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Music to listen to:

"Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble'

"Soundtrack to My Life" by Kid Cudi

"Bed" by J. Holiday

"Fallin'" by J. Holiday

"Tears of a Clown" by Smokey Robinson

(That's it. And, yes, that format was inspired by Millie's blog, Spontaneity is Key)

Surprise! Great Mood!

It's 3:43am and I'm suddenly in a great mood and just got a burst of energy! So, let me just blog until it passes. lol

I did not blog about Monday OR Tuesday yet. And I still have to write about today. What am I doing with my life? How can I not blog about the great past few days I've had? Guess I'll just have to do it now. :)

Monday: I had class, then I had to go to Wonders for my Compliance Training at 1:00pm. It was so weird not meeting Justin for lunch, as I usually do that on Mondays and Wednesdays. Anyway, I got done with that at around 3:00pm, so I just sat in Wilson until Math started at 4:10pm. After Math, Vicky and I decided to go to the Service Committee meeting to see what that's all about. I'm glad we did that because now I have a better idea of what the committee does. When that was done, I just went back to my room and...did nothing. Why did I do that? No idea. Whatev, it was a good day.

Tuesday: Tuesday was such a good day! I had COM 225, then I went to the Union to grab some lunch really quick before Psych. There, I ran into Danielle and Andy, so that was fun. But, I had to scarf down my food in order to make it to class on time....which I did not do. I was like 5 minutes late, but so were 30 other people, so it's NBD. And because I've learned everything this class is teaching me, I just went on stumbleupon.com and learned a bunch of completely irrelevant but totally interesting facts. haha. Then I went home to rest up really quick before giving blood. Yes, I got to give blood! My iron was the right amount and they didn't even have any trouble finding a vein! Those things are usually a problem for me, mostly the iron thing. I've attempted to give blood 5 times and have only succeeded twice due to low iron and sneaky veins. I'm rambling, sorry, ANYWAY! After donating, I went back to my room to rest for a bit. Then I went to the Union to have dinner with Keine, which was great. We argued about accents and the cause of thunder (which is actually caused by lightning, I was unaware). Then I had to go to Campus Band. That, too, was great. After band, I was supposed to go to Late Night with Kate and Jonathan, but Jonathan had to study for a test. So, Kate and I decided to go back to her house for dinner (Keith made pasta!). Kate, Keith, Sam, Laura, Myc, Sunchips, and I all ate some of Keith's delicious homemade pasta and watched the basketball game. It was a great time. Then Kate took me home, where I attempted to read for my classes the next day. Tuesday was a really great day, I haven't laughed that much in one day in so long. I loved that day. :)

Wednesday aka Today: This was a good day as well. My 8:00am class was cancelled due to the extreme amount of snow we got. So I got to sleep for an extra 4 hours before meeting Justin for lunch in the Union. Lunch was great, as I hadn't seen Justin in what seemed like forever (it was actually only 3 days lol). After lunch, I went back to room and went back to sleep. But, I overslept and was late to my Math class, but only by 20 minutes, so it was ok. I had a quiz, I think I did ok on it. I raced back to my room to shower before meeting the Mello and Tenor Freshmen for another food date at the Union. After eating, we went over to Open Mic night to watch Kristin sing. She was great! We stayed there until about 10:00pm, then Kristin and I walked to Case. I met Zack for Late Night in Wilson, where we ran into Kate (I guess she works Late Night at Wilson lol). We ate and talked and were literally THE last ones to leave the caf. Haha, that always happens with me and Zack. I got back to my room at about 1:00am and discovered my roommate already in bed. I haven't talked to her/seen her all day, it's weird.

Thursday looks like it's gonna be another one of these good days. I have 2 classes spanning from 10:20am-2:30pm. Then I'm free until the Finance Committee meeting at 7:30pm at the Union. When that's done, and if time permits, I'm gonna run over to Landon for PRIDE. We'll be making Valentine's and such! So, Thursday should be fun. Maybe I'll see if Zack wants to grab a late lunch after class; hopefully Shaw will have their delicious "Fish Nuggets"! Seriously, Shaw has really good fish nuggets and fish sliders. I find myself craving those and a pizza wrap from Shaw all the time. It's actually kind of sad. But, I digress.

I also can't wait for this weekend. Zack, Danielle, and I are going to see the Spartan Dischords on Friday night! I love the Dischords, their concerts are so fun. Then my dad is picking me up after the concert so I can get a bunch of stuff Kaitie forgot to bring me and so I can giver her all the stuff she left here from the weekend. Then Saturday I'm thinking about taking my brother, Nick, out for the day and hopefully visiting with Ryan before I go back to school. Saturday night is going to be great fun! I'm coming back to school a day early for the festivities of Saturday night. Then on Sunday I'm going to see Justin and Amy perform in the Concert Band concert at the Wharton Center. And I then have a Kappa meeting at 8:00pm that evening. See? Great weekend too!

But, I DO have class tomorrow morning...rather, in 6 hours. So I should probably go to bed. Good night, everyone! I hope your week is going as great as mine is!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie