Sunday, January 31, 2010

MSU, We Love Thy Shadows...

I was walking to the library tonight at around 1:45am, just walkin' to get there like college kids with a paper to print usually do. But then I looked up and saw the moonlight hit a pine tree in the most beautiful way imaginable and I just fell in love with the campus all over again. I literally walked to and from the library smiling. That sounds a little weird, but if you saw what I saw... It just made me realize how lucky I am to be going to Michigan State University. I love when I realize that; it just hits me out of nowhere. And not only do I attend this great university, I am also in the Spartan Marching Band. How amazing is that? How many people can say that they were a part of the Spartan Marching Band, a band rich with tradition and excellence.

I don't think many people really stop to think about their lives and how lucky they are. Say you're having a stressful day and you have 2 papers due and an exam to study for. That's all you're gonna think about. But if you just stop for five seconds and see your own "moonlit pine tree", then you'll realize just how great your life actually is. It's pretty amazing.

This place is where I'm the happiest and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I just had to write that experience down. There'll be more today. I mean, I still have to write about my weekend.

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Sick Day

I'm sick. So sick, that I did not go to class today. I slept until 1:30pm, which is actually not very late for me, but it was about 14 hours. Then I watched Grey's and Private Practice from last week and went back to sleep for an hour. When I woke up, I felt a lot better and decided to take a shower. Sleep and a shower were like a miracle drug! I was healed for the most part and could attend PRIDE with Justin. But when I got back to my room after PRIDE, I felt not so great. Not totally unhealthy, but not completely healthy. I guess I'll just take some Ibuprofen and load up on the Vitamin C and Water.

We talked about Lady Gaga as a LGBTA icon today in PRIDE. Did you know Gaga is bisexual? I had no idea, but I guess it's a big deal. Did you know that Channing Tatum is bisexual?! I really had no idea about that one either! I was very upset; he's also married so there's more to be upset about. But anyway, I think Gaga is a great LGBTA icon! She's always out there talking about Gay rights and advocating and all that. She's great.

I'm finally hanging out with Jess tomorrow! We're having a movie night at her apt. It's gonna be so much fun! It would be more fun if Zack could join us, but he has to go home and help his mom out. Leave it to Zack to be the good son. Danielle may be joining us though. I mean, three's company, right? Whatev, it'll be fun nonetheless.

Tomorrow I have so much catching up to do. I have to read 3 chapters of Psych and write a paper. I totally forgot about the paper until just now. Shit. Oh well, guess I won't be sleeping in very late tomorrow.

I have my very first meeting for Kappa Kappa Psi as an active member on Sunday! I'm excited to finally be allowed to go to a meeting and not have to get kicked out because we're not actives yet. I also may have dinner plans before that. We'll see how that goes.

Is it bad that I can't go one day without seeing/communicating with my friends? I just felt incomplete today without doing so. I don't like it. I don't want to ever go a day without my friends. I just love them too much. Well, maybe not TOO much, I don't think that's possible. But, a lot. Haha, sorry. I just had to put that out there.

I should really get started on this Psych reading, but I'm probably just going to go to bed. I'll do it tomorrow. Haha. Good night, everyone!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

"What? It's only Wednesday?!"

This week has been a really good one thus far. But, it's only Wednesday... this week is taking forever! I woke up this morning and almost skipped class because I just wanted to sleep, but I made the right decision and went to class. Then I got some math homework done in the library while waiting for noon to approach so I could go on my lunch date with Justin. After lunch, I went home and took a much needed 3.5 hour nap before math class. Math was pretty easy as usual, but then he started going way faster and throwing in fractions (I'm terrible with fractions) and using words I've never heard before. Math will now be more of a challenge, good thing I have friends like Keine and Zack who can help me out.

I don't know if it was the nap or the fact that I was around Danielle for the duration of it, but I think I may be getting sick. It could be my lack of sleep. But then it could be the fact that my roommate has Strep Throat. Ugh. I'm trying to load up on the Vitamin C and stay out of this room as much as possible so I don't get sick. I absolutely CANNOT get sick right now. I have way too much to worry about with all this Psych stuff AND a paper for WRA due by Feb 1. I guess that's what Thursday afternoon and Friday are for. I mean, I'm not doing any work at all tonight because I'm just too sleep deprived. So I'm going to bed in like, 2.5.

A couple of us Tenor Freshmen and a couple Mello Freshmen have decided that we need to hang out together. So, Sam and I have set up an event so we can do just that. We will be having a "Food Date" in the Union on February 3 at 6:45pm. Hopefully everyone can make it. It's not like we have to work around 60 schedules, only 13. 100% attendance rate is expected.

Well, I'm falling asleep at my computer as I write this, so I should probably hit the hay. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Oh, How I Love Sleep

Today was pretty good (thankfully). I woke up still incredibly tired, even after 7 hours of sleep. I was so tired that I was falling asleep in my favorite class. But, I made it through. After COM, I had to trek all the way to Vet Med in the freezing cold. I really hate East campus; I had to ask Justin three times about where I was going. I eventually found the lecture hall my Psych class was going to be held in. Speaking of Psych, I was right; it was hella-boring and I've learned all this info twice before. Whatev, it's an easy 4pt and a pre-req out of the way so I can take more exciting Psych courses later. After class (in which I spent a good 30 minutes on both Facebook and Twitter), I went to a late lunch with Zack. It was good to catch up with him, though he said nothing about Deanna which makes me wonder. Then I went to the library with Justin for a study party. I rediscovered Frank Ticheli, got to chill with Justin and got a couple Psych assignments done, so it was a couple hours well spent. Around 6:27pm, Justin reminded me that I needed to get my Tenor from my room for Campus Band, so I had to race back to Brody from the Library to get it and then book it to Dem. I made it on time thankfully. Band went well and then it was done. After, I went back to my room and filled out the application for South complex that Kate finally sent me. So, hopefully I'll be getting a job soon. Then I did some reading (but not really) and now here I am.

It's currently 12:57am. If I went to bed at this time any other day, it would be considered "early" for me. But, I have to get up at 7:10am in order to be at Bessey by 8:00am. I'm so gonna bullshit my way through WRA tomorrow morning; I just looked up the court cases on Wikipedia and that was the extent of my reading. Whatev, I'll make up the readings on Friday, which I've now decided to rename "Do-A-Weeks-Worth-Of-Reading Day".

Danielle apparently has Strep Throat, according to Olin. All I have to say is, "She better not give that shit to me!". I really can't get Strep again. If I do, then I can just say (as Kate says) "War" to my tonsils. I kinda like my tonsils, so I don't want to get Strep. Plus, it really hurts.

I need sleep so bad. It's all I can think about. Really, I was with Zack today and all I could think of was how tired I am. I've discovered that I kind of base my schedule around maximizing the amount of sleep I can get. For instance, I'm going to lunch at noon with Justin tomorrow; when I get back to my room I will have about 2.5 hours to sleep. And if I really hurry and book it back here after WRA, then I can probably sneak in a half an hour of sleep. See?! I think it's probably a bad thing to base your life around sleep. Oh well, it's happening. You know what else is happening? Me going to bed...right now. Good night!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Explanation behind "War": Kate emailed me that application and signed it "War, Kate". I was confused too. But at the bottom it read, "As in the opposite of 'peace' as a salutation." I laughed so hard. She's a clever one, that Kate.

Explanation behind "Hugs and Kisses, Ellie": In 8th grade, one of my favorite teachers always ended her little announcements to the class with "Hugs and Kisses, Mrs. Kaminski". And since I started writing a blog, I needed a signature thingy. All I could think of was Mrs. Kaminksi, so that's what I put. It makes me think of her every time I write it. :)

Monday, January 25, 2010

PGDub (Pretty Great Week)

Today was a pretty good day. My WRA class was entertaining as usual. I discovered that Dr.V is a crackhead and smokes pot while grading papers, so that's good. I went home and did some ChaCha for an hour before I met up with Justin at the Union for our lunch date. Then I bought my Psychology book and access code so I can finally start working on the shit I need to have done by next Monday. After that, I went to Dem to help out with the uniforms. I had some time to kill when that was done so I sat in Symphony Orchestra rehearsal with Amy. They were so amazing! I'm definitely planning on going to one of their concerts. After leaving the amazing musical experience I was having, I went to math class and totally aced a quiz. I came home to find Danielle fast asleep on the futon...and apparently very ill. I left her to sleep and went to dinner with Jonathan. It was brief but fun. After laughing so hard that I cried, I went back to my room to do some more ChaCha. Then I had a quick study sesh with Justin after which we went to late night in Landon and had some delish deserts. And now I am at the library learning about psychology and listening to some old band songs I played in high school. It was a great day, no drama, no stress about hdub (though I have so much), no nothin'.

I'm kind of excited for tomorrow. I have my fave class and then I have Psych an hour later. After my classes are over I'm going to a late lunch with Zack. We really need to catch up as he's only just now discovered that I changed my major and that's kind of old news. Hopefully we'll be hanging out more this week. Possibly lunch with two of our friends and hopefully going to see Michal in Reefer Madness this weekend. Anyway, I also have campus band tomorrow night! All this classical music tonight has got me just itching to play some sax. Then after band Jonathan and I are supposed to be going to late night with Kate. I like hanging out with Kate away from all the other Tenors, not that I don't love the other Tenors. It's just more personal. But yeah, that's my day tomorrow. Should be a good one too.

Well, I should probably be rested for this great day tomorrow. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Ghetto Superstar!

That is what you are! Haha, this title has nothing to do with my day except for the fact that I'm listening to it right now.

Today was a pretty amazing day! I woke up from a little slumber party with Amy and Chrissy around 12:45pm. That was a good decision;l I love sleeping in. Then I went back to my room and discovered that I passed my ChaCha test and can now start actively earning money. Then I had Third Degree for Kappa Kappa Psi. And after all that was over I went to Justin's room to watch Lilo and Stitch with him and Hannah. Doesn't that sound great? I mean, really.

I also found out that I'll be able to take PSY 101 this semester and drop my HB classes! I'm both excited and annoyed about this. I've taken this class in high school already, but I'm getting closer to the better psych classes. Whatev, I can deal. It kinda sucks that it's so far away though. Oh well, yay for Psychology!

So, Third Degree was pretty terrific. It was so cool to see brothers from every chapter in Michigan (and some from other states) showing their support for us. I can't wait to really start getting involved in the chapter! After the degree we went to Harrison Roadhouse for dinner. That was fun too Everything was just so great! Oh, and I have the best Big EVER. She gave me 51 Nerf gun bullets(!)....and a little paddle, a cute keychain, and a sweet t-shirt. Also, Rachelle's just straight up great. :)

Tomorrow should be mostly chill. I have WRA from 8:00 to 9:50am which is kinda gross. But, I really like the Dr.V, so I think I'll make it. Then I'm meeting Justin in the Union for lunch at noon. Then it's nap/maybe-a-little-studying time until Math at 4:10-5:30pm. After that, I'm done. Maybe I'll make dinner plans with Jonathan; I kinda miss him even though I saw him all day today and yesterday. Or maybe Zack as I haven't seen him in so long and that's just not right.

Well, I like blogging, but at this point in time I just like sleeping so much more. So, good night!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Saturday, January 23, 2010

....in the Union

Today was a pretty easy day for me. I woke up at 1:00pm to go to the Psychology Building to see an adviser. I was told that I have to take PSY 101 for basically the third time, as I've taken Psych and AP Psych in high school. Whatev, at least I know I'll pass it. I also discovered that there is very good chance that I'll still be stuck with these HB couses and not PSY 101. This saddens me because it's like wasting money on classes I won't need. But they count as my electives, so there's a bright side I guess.

After the Psych Building, I went over to the Union to get some delish pizza and to do some studying and research on careers in the field of Psychology. I studied and researched for about 2 hours before Keine and Michal showed up. Then it was pretty much just Facebook and some Psych planning from then on. Eventually Kristin joined us as well. It was boring, yet fun. I know that doesn't make sense, but when you're with people like those three...yeah. We ended up staying in the Union until 11:30pm. So, I was in the Union today for a total of 8.5 hours. I mean, I don't have a problem with that, I kind of like studying in the Union. It makes me feel so collegiate. It also has delish food readily available at any time I want, so that's a plus.

On my way hone from the Union I was almost attacked by a possum. This is what happened: I was walking right by Kellogg and there it was, a possum, just staring at me, like 3 feet away. I was so scared and I literally screamed "Holy fuck!!" and ran the other way. It was crazy.

Upon arriving at my room, I told Danielle the possum story (naturally). Then I decided that I need to wear some jeans that DON'T flood to MER for Kappa tomorrow, which meant I needed to do laundry. And Danielle decided that since I'll be up doing laundry, she could have her new "man", Kyle, over for a while. Well, it's currently 4:20am and Kyle is still here. He's staying the night now because it is so late. Ugh. What am I gonna do when I have to take a shower in the morning? That'll be awkward. Oh well, I guess he's gonna find out early on that I snore.

Tomorrow, or in 5 hours, I am going to MER for KKPsi. I'm really excited to learn more about our fraternity's history and traditions and what we're all about. Then when we get back from that, we have our final exam. I'm a little nervous about that, but I made some sickass flashcards to study with on the ride home with Chrissy and Jonathan. Yay Kappa!!

Well, I should really get some sleep so I can be ready to learn and show all I've learned tomorrow. Ew, only 4 hours of sleep. I guess I can always catch up on sleep on Sunday. Good night!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Slow to Horrible to Better to Great!

That is how today went. I woke up on time but took a little too long to get ready. And by "ready", I mean throw on some sweats, brush my teeth, and wash my face. I had to leave my room by 7:30am in order to have enough time to walk over to Bessey for my 8am WRA. I ended up leaving at 7:40 and was therefore forced to take a bus. I made it to class with 5 minutes to spare though! But, then I was falling asleep during class, that is until Justin texted me "Wake the fuck up and go to class! (that is all)". After WRA, I went back to my room and did my homework for HB 201 and then took a nap. Then I had to go to the library to print out my homework, but I have no cash because my PIN number still has yet to arrive! So Justin, the lifesaver that he is, allowed me to use his printer AND he gave me money to catch the bus from Gilchrist to the Eppley Center. I was almost late, but I made it. The "better" part comes in here, in HB 201. We basically took a skills and interests survey to make sure we are in the correct area of study, apparently...I am not. After class, I walked to Wilson for my math class, in which we learned how to solve for x. (Please note the extreme amount of sarcastic joy in the previous sentence.) BUT, we had a sub that knew how to teach and she let us out 30 minutes early. I then met Justin for an early dinner. Keine, who is a Psychology major, and Michal ran into us there and decided to eat with us. Then Justin and I met Wings to go paint some mugs in the Union, but they ran out, so we just ate again. This concludes my day, which ended greatly. Sorry for all the rambling.

I called my parents today to see how badly they would freak out about my decision to change majors. Surprisingly, they didn't. My dad actually told me that he wasn't too keen on my HB major and much rather preferred Psychology. They told me to do whatever I was interested in and whatever would make me happy, but also to keep in mind that it will involve work. As if I didn't know. Now all I have to do is decide how I want to use this Psychology degree and the career I want to pursue. I will hopefully be able to do this easier now because Keine (who is a Psych major) posted a link to a bunch of Psych careers on my facebook wall. (Thanks, Dawg!) So, I have some deciding to do and some classes to drop.

Tomorrow I have one class (my fave, COM 225). Then I'm going to lunch with my big brother, Rachelle, so we can study for my final exam for Kappa Kappa Psi. After that I have to go talk to my Undergraduate Advisor about dropping my HB classes and switching them with (hopefully) a Psych course. When that's done, it'll officially be the weekend for me. Hopefully Jonathan and I will be going to dinner/late night with Kate too. Then I'll be going to Ann Arbor with Kappa for MER! I'm excited to learn more about the fraternity. And, finally, on Sunday I will go through Third Degree for KKPsi and officially be an active member!!! I'm even more excited for that!

All in all, I'm really looking forward to the future and the next few days to come! And I just need to give one last shout-out to my good friend, Keine, the Psychology major. :)

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Just My Future, NBD.

I think it may be a bad thing that I find myself wanting to drop an HB course for a PSY one. Why is this bad? Hospitality Business is my major, not Psychology. I mean, if I could major in HB and specialize or minor in Psych, my life would be great! But, sadly, MSU does not offer either of these options. I don't know what it is about Psychology. I just find it incredibly interesting. Don't tell any University faculty this, but I sat in on a friend's Psych class once...and I took more notes in that class than I had in any classes I was actually enrolled in. And now I'm taking COM 225- Intro to Interpersonal Communication, which is kind of like a psych class...and I absolutely love it.

I would change my major to Psychology in a hot minute! But, I have no idea what I'd do with a degree in Psychology. Most people would say I could do anything with a Psych degree, but I don't know what I would WANT to do. Got any ideas? I'm completely serious, if you have an idea, please tell me. As of now, the plan is to open a restaurant with my HB degree. I guess I could do that with a Psych degree, but I really have no idea what I'm doing in the business of hospitality so I kind of need to keep HB as my major. And I HATE that my advisor gave me so many HB courses as freshman because what if I actually do change my major? I will have spent all that money on classes I don't even need. That's a big thing that's keeping me from changing majors.

I just wish I knew what I wanted. It would really make my life a whole lot easier. And I wish I could talk to my parents (or anyone) about this, but I feel like my mom would beat up and then pull me out of MSU because I don't know what I want to do. She's made comments about me going to community college instead because it's cheaper, so she would really make me leave. Ugh, it's just hard. But, I'm seriously considering taking some Psych courses next year. They can be my electives (yeah, I beat the system!). Hopefully I figure it out.

And seriously. If you have ideas, tell me. Thanks!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

It's Date Night!!!

We had Tenor Freshmen Date Night tonight. Just the five of us freshmen T-Saxes going to dinner and a movie and just straight up bonding. I really enjoyed spending time away from all the vets. Not that I don't love them all to death, it's just good to be with people who are all in the same boat and all have the same amount of experience in the SMB as me. Anyway, here's what we did. We went to see Sherlock Holmes (which is really good!) and then we went to the Union for dinner. We all had a good time and I think we're gonna do this more often.

On another note. Don't you hate that awkward phase after a fight with your friend? It's just so...awkward. I mean, everything is all cleared up and you're no longer hating each other, but it's like you don't know how to act around each other. I hate that. And then, for some friends it lasts FOREVER but with others it last a whole 5 seconds and then you're back to gossiping about how hot Jude Law is in Sherlock Holmes (oh, I mean...nope, that's what I mean, he's pretty hot in that movie.). I recently had an "incident" with one of my friends and went through the aforementioned "awkward phase". It was sufficiently awkward, but it was brief, so all is well now. I just felt the need to blog about it because that's what blogs are for.

Now back to band. Is it too early to be excited for Preseason? I just can't wait to get back from summer break and see everyone! I mean, I see them all the time now, but I won't in like 4 months. I can't wait to be in the block (yes, I AM GOING to make it in the block next year). I can't wait to go to Freshman Dress and watch as the new Tenors become true members of the Spartan Marching Band. I can't wait to smell of hard work. I can't wait to go home and gush to Justin about how much I've missed the SMB, rather than going to my dorm room and crying to my parents about how much I hate it. I can't wait to see the looks on the freshmen's faces as we do The Series for them the first time. I can't wait to make new memories with new (and old) people. I just can't wait!!!

Tomorrow is going to be a pretty chill day. I have COM 225, which I love, at 10:20 to 11:40am. I'm going to lunch with Danielle after that, I feel we need to catch up and have some roomie time. Then I'm gonna go back to my room, maybe take a nap, and get my readings done for WRA 115. Then around 5ish I'm going to dinner at Conrad's College Town Grill with Justin and Keine to support Kappa Kappa Psi. And finally, Campus Band from 7:00-9:50pm in which I will be playing Tenor Sax alongside Brad. We're also supposed to have a mandatory floor meeting at 9:30 about some drama that happened tonight, but obviously I can't make it to that. Wow. That kinda looks like a busy day, but it's really not when you think about the time span it's over.

Well, I have be at my favorite class, COM 225, in about 6 hours and 20 minutes. Which means I have to be up and in the shower in about 5 hours. I should probably go to bed now.

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Oh, Walt Disney, You're a Genius

I absolutely love Disney movies!! Not the new ones with actual people or computer generated characters, but the classic Disney movies like Cinderella and Beauty and the Beast. I mean, I do like some of the new Disney movies, like I love Ratatouille and Up. But, they're just not the same as the others. Plus, the older ones all had at least three songs in them and they were pretty much THE best.

The reason I'm blogging about this is because I just finished watching Mulan with two of my good friends, Justin and Keine. I also received about 10 Disney movies from my cousin for Christmas. Then I went to some thrift stores and eventually picked up 10 more. I have almost become obsessed with finding every classic Disney movie, it may be unhealthy.

Disney movies just take me back to a time when I was younger and everything was easy and there were no big problems or decisions to face. I was always happy back then. Also, the songs are freaking FANTASTIC!! I can almost guarantee that every student at this great university can sing the words to "Hakunah Matata" or "A Whole New World". Disney movies can really just bring people together. It's kind of amazing.

I recommend watching these movies:
Mulan
Cinderella
Snow White
Aladdin
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Fantasia
Pocahontas

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Apt. 301, Building E

I get more and more excited for this fall every time I see Justin's face. We're living together next year and it's going to be amazing! Yesterday we made a list of things that are "quintessential" for our apartment. Basic things like towels, cooking utensils, and a garbage can. And then the not-so-basic things like champagne flutes and a fondue maker. We already have pretty much everything except for bathroom stuff and cleaning supplies.

We also went to a poster sale and bought three posters and a tapestry. One poster is of four different colored rubber ducks, which is for the bathroom, naturally. Another is like a blueprint of how to make many different "drinks", that's for the kitchen. And the last one is The Beatles on Abbey Road, which is going by the front door because I just feel like it belongs there. The tapestry is a nice blue and green tidal wave. Oh, and all those posters are framed, so they look extra classy. It's just gonna be a classy place.

We also keep coming with a bunch of things we're going to do in the apt. We've decided that since we'll have a fondue maker and champagne flutes, we'll HAVE to have dinner parties; classy, black-tie dinner parties. And since I have so many Disney videos, we're having a calendar that tells us not each others' schedule, but what Disney movie we'll be watching that week! And, as a result of reading MLIA, we're going to string red yarn all around and act like we're spies trying to get through lasers. We also just decided today that we are going to get a fish. Probably a Beta Fish, although I have no idea what those are. I kinda want to name it "Sparticus" because 1)it's very school spirited and 2) then we could write on his bowl "I am Sparticus!!" and "This is Sparta!!"....we could also call him "Sparty" for short (then we could say that Sparty lives with us).

I'm just really excited to live with Justin next year. It'll be nice to have someone to come home to that completely understands everything I'm going through with marching band and who I can just tell anything to. We'll be like a little family. Aaaand, Jonathan has expressed an interest in living with us during our Junior year!! So, that's something to look forward to in the following year. I love my life and I can't wait for the future!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie

Monday, January 11, 2010

Everybody's Doing It...

It seems that everyone is getting a blog nowadays. I've always thought they were lame but secretly wanted to make my own. So, I thought why not start now? My goal for this thing is to make an entry every day...or at least a few times a week. (I'm a forgetful person and am bound to forget about it sometimes.)

So, I guess I should start with the current status of my life. Well, Spring Semester has just begun and I couldn't be more enthused. Actually, I probably could but it's a figure of speech, go with it. After not doing so hot last semester, I'm ready to blow this semester up! Some classes I am excited about like Campus Band (with Jess and Zack!) and HB 201. Others, not so much, like MTH and WRA. But, I have friends who are great at those subjects and will hook a sista up! Yay for smart friends!

I made a New Year's Resolution...again. But, this one's not lame like "lose weight" or "get organized". I feel that it's a really good thing to resolve to do and it's made my life pretty great thus far. My resolution is to do what makes me happy and not worry about what other people think of me. Here's how it's helped me: I used to not text people or write on their Facebook walls because I thought they'd think I was annoying. But, I did these things and guess what! The world did not end! Nobody called me annoying or anything! According to a good friend (and psychology major) I've been worrying so much about what other people are thinking that I don't see how they actually feel. I believe she called this "the looking glass" or something? I don't know. I mean, sometimes I still get that feeling of "what if?" but I've learned to ignore it. I'm just happier (if that's even possible, my life was great before my resolution).

I'm running on 1.5 hours of sleep and I must wake up in 4.5 hours to enroll in and drop courses. After this, I have to actually attend a class or two and I should probably be awake for them. So, friends, I will hopefully converse with you at a later date. Well, I guess it's not really conversing so much as you reading what I write. I'll just assume you know what I mean. Good night!

Hugs and Kisses,
Ellie