Still Here

It's 6:04am on Saturday morning and I'm still in the hospital. I have no idea why I am awake. I've been trying to sleep since 11:00pm, but can only ever stay asleep for a few hours at a time. It's probably the fact that a nurse comes in and wakes me up every few hours...

Anyway.

Today was the day. The doctors woke me up at around 9:50am to tell me that there was an opening and that I would be going into surgery in about 20 minutes. That was a surprise because they said it almost definitely would not be happening before 2:00pm. But, I texted Justin, Kate, and Danielle right away to let them know (because they told me to). They were as surprised as I was by how quickly I got in and they all wished me luck. The surgical team was really nice. They were all very friendly and joked with me, which I loved. That anesthesia put me out quick. I remember being rolled into the O.R. and them giving me oxygen to breath in while they injected the anesthetic into my IV. The next thing I knew, I was in the recovery room being woken up. I was a little out of it for about 10 minutes, but then I was just hella-tired. My belly hurt where they made the four incisions but they gave me some pain meds and it cooled down a lot. They kept me in the recovery room for about an hour before wheeling me into a brand new room...this time on the Women's floor, so I got to be with grown-ups. When I got there, I just slept for a few hours. My mom called Justin and Danielle to update them while I slept, which I was unaware of because I texted them and Kate when I woke up.

I just laid in bed and watched TV for a couple hours, then I got all kinds of visitors. Justin said that he, Brad, and Hannah would be coming in about a half an hour. Well, when that half an hour rolled around this is who was here: Justin, Hannah, Brad, Keine, and Hannah's friend Ryan. They stayed with me and talked and made gall bladder jokes while my parents left to go get food. They were there for 2-3 hours. Then my parents decided that they were gonna go home to make sure Kaitie hadn't killed Nick. My friends stayed for another 20 minutes or so and they left to go to Amy's to celebrate her audition being over. Kate texted me asking if I knew when I was going home right when the doctors were telling me that they were gonna keep me overnight again. She is such a good friend, she asked if I needed company and told me to tell her if I needed anything (as usual). I didn't want to make her leave whatever she was doing, so I just decided to go to sleep. Speaking of which, I can't believe I fell asleep during Speed Skating. I was kinda mad, but it's whatev.

My arms are now symmetrical. I have bandages where my IV was in both hands and now I have bandages from where they drew blood in both elbow-pits. TWINS!! lol. Hopefully they're done taking blood from me now. I mean, I think it's really cool to watch, but being woken up do get it done is getting a little old.

I'm getting sleepy again, so I think I'm gonna go back to bed while I wait to finally be discharged. And I'd just like to reiterate how amazing my friends are and how much I love them. I know they'll always be there for me.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

My First Time...

...in the hospital. Get your mind outta the gutter, ya nasty. haha.

This is my second night in the hospital. It has been pretty uneventful. A lot of lying in bed and watching whatever is on TV. And apparently a lot of chatting. lol

I am so hungry, words cannot describe. I have not eaten since 8:00pm on Wednesday. It's 5:00am on Friday now! They won't let me eat because of two reasons. 1) When you eat, the gall bladder contracts to release bile. Bile is an enzyme that aids in digestion. But, I have so many gall stones that when my gall bladder contracts it spits one out, causing me pain and pancreatitis. 2) I have to have surgery tomorrow at some point and they don't let you eat or drink anything at least 8 hours before. Because they can only "squeeze" me in, they don't know what time I'll be getting this done. Therefore, I cannot eat.

Justin stayed with me overnight, thankfully. I had someone to talk to and stay with me for the entire time I've been here. And someone to constantly update the world of Twitter on the status of my health. Every time I woke up, he was on the phone with someone. Although, this "someone" was really only either my mom or Kate. But still.

Kate came to visit me today for a few hours before the concert (in which I was obviously unable to perform). She brought Jimmy John's to 1) feed herself and Justin and 2) torture me because I cannot eat. Just kidding, but not really, but kinda. I'm really glad she came, it means a lot. Anyway, Kate, Justin, and I sat and talked for an hour or so before my parents got here. Then my parents joined the convo for a couple more hours before Kate and Justin left for the concert. I was told to keep them posted on my status.

My parents then decided to go to my room and get some stuff I might need. My phone and computer chargers, for instance. Also, my mom did my laundry for me. Yay for moms and clean clothes! While they were gone, I had the room to myself. I took advantage of this and slept for an hour or two. Well, nurses were coming in sometimes, but other than that, I slept.

When I woke up (at 10:00pm), Justin and Kate were just walking in. They came back! I was so happy that they were there again. My mom arrived with Danielle literally 10 minutes after them. We were chattin' it up for awhile. Then the nurse came in and told us that we had to move to the Parent's Lounge so people could sleep. So, we relocated and carried on with our conversation. They went home around midnight.

I was able to take a shower (thank God!) after we got back to the room. I needed it, trust me. It felt so good to be clean and refreshed. Hot damn, I just love showers!

I got a roommate today. Thankfully, it's not a screaming 2-year-old. She's apparently 14 and prone to seizures during dance class. But, she's done nothing but sleep since she's been here, so that's good. I hope she stays that way tomorrow. haha. And hopefully whatever is wrong with her is nothing serious. Maybe she'll have a name tomorrow too.....

Being hooked up to an IV is the equivalent of drinking 12690 Big Gulps from 7-11. I have to pee at least 3 times an hour. It's ridiculous! I'm not even drinking anything! I've grown used to the feeling of the IV in my hand. It's like another appendage now really. But, when that cord gets caught on something it hurts like a BITCH! I am now very cautious of what I do with my "IV Hand".

I've decided that I'm going to go to sleep now. The small children on this floor will be waking up soon and I can't get to sleep when they're playing and crying all day. So, good night world! (OMG, and as if right on cue, a baby's cry is heard in the distance. Telepathy or something.)

Oh, P.S., I have the most amazing friends EVER! Thank you and I love you to all of them! That is all.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

"C'mon, man! I just wanna go hoooome!"

I'm currently in the hospital. I have recently discovered that I have both gall stones and pancreatitis. Also, I have to get surgery to have my gall bladder removed. Yay. It is currently 3:39am and I have been here since 11:00pm. There's been a lot of waiting. And thankfully, Justin has been here right beside me the whole time. Had it not been for the "suggestion" by Keine that I go to the hospital and get this pain checked out, I would never have found out about these ailments. So, thank you to both Justin and Keine.

I don't want to write anymore tonight because my hand hurts where they put that stupid IV, which is not even in use at this moment. So, I'm done for now. More to come tomorrow when I'm still in the hospital for observations.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Ranting!!

There will be many little rants on things that are pissing me off. Or things that make me happy. Or things that have been on my mind. So, just be prepared.

I hate that I've worked so hard to get the reputation of "a good friend that doesn't have drama", just to ruin it with one dumb mistake. I feel like such a bad friend. I know that I made a mistake and that it was a very stupid mistake at that. I think about it every day. All parties that were actually INVOLVED are totally over it. But, the person I hurt clearly is not. And I don't care about the other party who was involved, I care about this person I hurt. I've always been the person who would never hurt a friend and who would always be there for them. Now I've gone and made a dumb mistake and hurt a friend that I really care about. I'm in the process of trying to fix it. But, there's only so much that I can do in this situation. Ugh!! I just HATE that I did that! I feel like a terrible, terrible friend and I am so sorry. I just want to go back, but I can't; I have to deal with it. So, that's what I'm trying to do. Fix it and move on (hopefully). And that's the end of my rant about me being a bad friend.

Okay. How stupid do you have to be to not break up with your significant other, when SO MANY people have told you that they're cheating on you?! A good friend of mine is in this situation. At least 6 of us have told him that his girlfriend is cheating on him. He knows deep down that it's happening. But, he keeps saying that he doesn't know what to believe. I HATE that!! Why don't you know what to believe?! 3 of your BEST FRIENDS have told you this! You're not gonna believe them?! His girlfriend's own SISTER told him that she's cheating, but he still "doesn't know what to think". Seriously?! She's putting him through so much pain, he should just end it. Poor guy. I love him, but he can be so stupid sometimes. Ugh!! And so ends my rant of stupid friends.

I hate when friends try to turn you against other friends. I have two friends that really dislike each other. They always try to point out the flaws in the other to try to "persuade" me to hate the other. I've told both of them that I consider both of them my good friends and that I may not always agree with everything they say about the other, but I'll always be there to listen. But, they still try to push it on me. I kind of hate it because just hearing it so much makes me believe it sometimes; and I KNOW it's not true! It's kind of unhealthy, but they're my friends and I love them, so I have to deal. End rant of friends hating friends.

The girl code. Who came up with that? Because I'd like to punch them in the face. This rule of "you can't date your friends ex-boyfriend...even if SHE broke up with HIM" is just stupid and creates so much unnecessary drama. Even a kiss is against the rules. I feel that if one girl says she's over a guy and another girl waits a suitable amount of time, she can go after him. She's over him, why not? Ugh, it's just so dumb! Now that I've said that, I can also totally understand where this person is coming from...but ONLY if it was an incredibly long and invested relationship. I guess there are some rules that we need to follow. But the "girl code" is one of the dumbest things ever invented. That's the end of the "girl code" rant.

I love how music can instantly change your mood. Clearly, I was in a pissy mood. But then "Here's To The Night" by Eve 6 came on and now I'm calm and reminiscent all of a sudden. I love that! Thank you, music! This is why I say that music is always there for me. It can always put me in a better mood. I just love it so much! Okay, that's the end of my rant on music.

Don't you hate when you're shopping for jeans and they don't have your size? I hate that so much. I was shopping for jeans the other day and they only had one type of jeans that was my size. I was desperately in need of jeans, so I had to buy two of the same pair. Oh well, it had to be done. This marks the end of my rant on shopping for jeans.

I hate when I invest so much of myself into a friendship, and the other person couldn't care less. I've invested so much time and so much of myself into a friendship because I think this person is pretty much the shit. But this person seems like they could really give a shit about how much I care about them. Ya know how sometimes when you meet someone, you know right away that you want to be friends with them? Well, that's how I was with this person. Right away, I knew that they were super cool and that they'd be really fun. So, I started to invest myself in being their friend. But they seem like they don't care about being my friend. They put very little, if any, effort into this friendship. Friendship is a two-way street, both people contribute. I just wish the other person would do the same. The end of my rant on friendship.

I hate when you think so much of a person that it impedes upon your life. Like, I could really enjoy a certain activity, but if this one person thinks it's lame, then I'll immediately start seeing it that way. Not completely, but little things will start popping up and then it'll eventually take over. I hate that, because it could make me give up on something that I really love. I need to work on that, because that's really not a good thing at all. That's the end of my rant on...who is controlling my life?

I absolutely HATE that I hold grudges. It ruins my friendships and other aspects of my life. It's so stupid! Why can't I just let things go? I wish I could just live in the present and forget about the past. I wish others could do the same. That was a very short rant on holding grudges.

I think I'm done ranting for now. If I come up with anything else, I'll just have to make another ranting entry. Haha.

Weekend Update....with Ellie

I haven't blogged in a few days. I am aware of this. I'm kind of okay with it, but kinda not. I have a lot to say, but there's a lot that I can't say. It's complicated. Whatev, here I go. Oh, P.S., there will be a few rants and tangents in this entry, so be prepared.

THURSDAY: Remember how I said I would be super pissed if I missed the class on jealousy? Yeah, well I missed it. I was super pissed. And because I missed my fave class, I was sure as hell not going to Psych. So I didn't go to any classes on Thursday. Oh well. I did other things on Thursday. I slept until about 3:00pm. Then I went to Meijer with Justin because he needed socks and I had to take back my V-neck shirts because they were huge. We were successful in finding these things. Then we went to SnyPhi for an early dinner. I went to Danielle's concert at 7:30pm. It was very good. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I was supposed to go to dinner with Kate at 9:00pm on this day as well. But Alexis was coming back in town and getting a bunch of people to go out for dinner with her, so we did that instead. That was fun. Awkward at times, but fun nonetheless. But, I was very shaken and a little upset, so I asked Jonathan if he could come over and talk for a little bit. He said yes, but it'd be awhile because he was doing something. So I decided to start reading my "Columbine" book while I waited. He arrived at around 1:30ish. We talked forever; he didn't leave my room until 6:00am. I loved every minute of it. :)

FRIDAY: Because I stayed up with Jonathan until 6:00am, I slept until 3:00pm. Then I started getting ready for Tenor Toast and dinner. Jonathan and Jack (who were looking very good) met me so we could wait for Chrissy to pick us up. When we got to the Tenor Haus for Tenor Toast, everyone was looking very good and all classed up. Then everyone left for Huddle and Kate, Keine, Laura, and I chillaxed while we waited for our reservation time to come around. We watched Baby Mama and Kate made us some Manicotti (very good). We finally left for PF Chang's around 8:30ish. Now, our reservations were for 8:45pm. We were not seated until 9:30pm...at the earliest. But we did get free appetizers out of our ridiculous wait. PF Chang's was delicious. The dinner was fun, awkward at times (of course), but still pretty fun. Then we went back to the Tenor Haus to enjoy some post-Huddle fun. That was super fun (no awkwardness at all).

SATURDAY: I slept until 3:30ish on Saturday. Then Jill came to visit and stayed the night with me. We went to Noodles with Alexis and some of the other Tenors. That was fun. Then Jess called to ask if I was coming to her Mexican Fiesta later. I told her Jill was here and she told me to bring her, so I did (Justin too). But we had to go back to my room to get Jill's ID. We went over to Jess' apt and stayed there for about 2ish hours. Then we went to McDonalds and were forced to stop and get Jill some Insomnia Cookies. When we got back to my room, we put in Spice World. I love that movie, and now so does Jill. Haha. When we looked at the clock, it was like 2:30am. Jill had to be up by 9:30am, so we went to bed. But, I started thinking about stuff so I stayed up until about 5:00am.

SUNDAY (aka TODAY): Jill and I woke up at 9:00am to go get her ID form the front desk. And Auntie Linda and Uncle Dawson were there at 9:30am to pick her up. I went back to bed at 10:00am. I slept until 5:30pm. That was probably a really bad idea, I'll probably be up forever now. Anyway, I had Kappa at 8:30pm and that lasted forever! We were there until 10:30ish. Afterwards, Jonathan, Kate, and I went to get Late Night in Brody. That was great! We talked about Preseason and marching band a lot. It was a really fun dinner, full of laughs. After dinner(which we did not end until 11:30pm), I came back to my room, watched some of the Olympics, and made some brownie batter for a midnight snack with Danielle. It's now 2:06am. I'm wide awake because I slept until 5:30pm.

Tomorrow is going to be a little busy. I have class from 8-9:50am. Then I'm meeting Justin (and hopefully Alexis) in the Union for lunch at noon. Then I get to chill until Math at 4:10pm. That gets done at 5:30pm, at that time I get to wait for 8:00pm to roll around. At 8:00pm, I'm having dinner with Kate. She gets off work at 8:00pm and I start at 8:30pm, so we're just meeting up. Yes, I finally get to start making money! My first day of work in the caf is tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, but I don't think it'll be too crazy. I won't get off word until close, so I'll be there for a while. Then I get to go home and pass out. Haha. Yeah, that's what tomorrow looks like for me.

The end.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Proud to be an Amercian

I've been watching the Olympics for the past 4 hours and what I've seen has made me incredibly proud to be an American. The athletic ability of these American Olympic representatives has me in awe. "(Fill in the blank) is the best (fill in the blank) in the world!" has come out of my TV so many times tonight, and each time they referred to an American athlete. I'm proud to say that I come from the same country as these great competitors.

Anyway.

Today did not go as planned/predicted. I slept through my WRA class AND lunch with Justin. Fortunately, I was able to go to office hours and turn in my paper. What a relief. And I don't think Dr.V is going to take off any points for the paper being 4 hours late. I mean, he didn't mention anything about it. So, it's reasonable to believe that, right?

After walking over to Bessey to turn in my paper, I went to the Union for lunch. Vicky happened to be there studying for our math quiz, so I ate with her. I made it a very brief lunch so I could get back to my room and study/nap/shower before class. Well, what ended up happening was me getting home at 2:00pm and going right to bed. I woke up at 3:00pm and hopped in the shower. It wasn't a fast shower, but it was no (as my dad would say) "Hollywood" shower. I was ready and out the door by 3:45pm.

I got to Wilson at about 4:00pm. I had not been on my computer all day, so I checked all my usual websites for a little part of class. Probably not a good idea to do during math class, my worst class ever, but it happened. Matt, one of the people from my group at DMA, sent all of us a message in which he said we should all have a continuous conversation. Naturally, I HAD to contribute right away. So, I ended up missing a bit of the lesson. I'll just get it from the book later. I did, however, take the quiz. I think it went okay; I knew some stuff and had no idea about other stuff. And going off of previous experience, I'm think a 50-60%. Not great, but I'll take it. The quiz took me about 10 minutes, so I was out of there by like 5:15pm.

I then went over to Justin's room so we could go to the mall. When I got there, he told me that Danielle (my roommate) asked if she could tag along. So, we had to wait for her. But I wanted to eat so we told her to meet us at the Union. However, she had to go to Meijer so she was just gonna meet us at the mall.

Justin had the exact shoes he wanted in his mind already, so we looked everywhere for the pair he was picturing. But, we couldn't find them, so he had to settle for some other ones. Then we found a super hot shirt and tie for him. I told him to buy so many shirt-and-tie combos JUST for the tie. Haha. They looked so good! Whatev, he got the combo I wanted, so ultimately, I win. Then we met Danielle. But not before something completely not-okay-with-me happened.

This is kind of a story within a story. Okay. Justin and I were walking to a store when we saw a little girl (couldn't be more than 2 or 3 years old) standing in the middle of the hallway(?), just looking around. We looked around for a parent and thought we saw her at a nearby stand, so we continued. But we weren't sure, so we kept an eye on her. The "parent" walked away without her, so we knew that wasn't her mom. We didn't know what to do. We stood there, watching the little girl, making sure she wasn't getting kidnapped, but not helping her. After a few minutes we decided that we HAD to do something. We walked over to this poor little girl, got on her level and asked where if she was lost. She responded in a meek little voice with, "Where's my daddy?" And right then, out pops a couple from behind a nearby gum ball machine and says, "That's why you don't run away!" and take the little girl. (This was her father, so don't be alarmed.) We were shocked at these parents. This girl was at most 3 years old and they were testing her?! She's 3! Just think how scared that little girl must have been!! I am appalled that they would do that to their own child! I just can't believe it. I will NEVER do that to my child. And, hopefully, neither will anyone else. Sorry, I'm done ranting now.

After that (which I am still very affected by), we met up with Danielle and then went to find me some jeans. We only found a very small selection and I was forced to get two of the same pair. Then I had to find a black, long-sleeved shirt for Campus Band. Of course, there were none in the womens section. I had to get a men's dress shirt. But, it was on sale, so I'm kind of okay with it. We then walked over to Meijer so Danielle could get a new phone and so I could get some men's V-Neck undershirts. (They just look so comfy and somewhat stylish!) Then we caught the bus to the Union and ate some pizza. (Yes, for the third time today.)

Danielle and I got back to our room at around 10:00pm. I checked all my sites and then took my Psych quiz. Sam and I decided that we should make the Mello-Tenor hang out a regular thing, so we notified our respective sections. We are both super excited about this. I can't wait until next Wednesday now. After organizing that whole thing, I turned on the Olympics and watched for about 4 hours. Now, here I am.

I am so so excited for COM tomorrow!! We're learning about jealousy. If you look up "jealous" in the dictionary, you'll find a picture of me. I'm a very jealous person, but apparently I'm really good at hiding it because a lot of people close to me don't know. Anyway, this class session should teach me a lot about it and ways to control it and stuff like that. And controlling it means that I won't have to feel bad so much. Therefore, I'm excited for it.

Also, at 2:30pm tomorrow, it is officially the weekend for me. This means I can start reading the books I bought yesterday! I'm really excited to start reading "Columbine" and learning what REALLY happened. Oh right, I'm talking about tomorrow. I have absolutely nothing to do until 7:30pm, which is when Danielle's concert is. I'm excited to hear some full orchestra music. I love it. When the concert is over, I'm going to dinner with Kate. That should be fun too. Unfortunately, dinner with Kate means that I have to miss PRIDE. But, I guess we're only making bracelets and stuff so it's no big. I go every other week anyway, I think I can miss one meeting. Yeah, so, tomorrow should be pretty chill and fun.

Speaking of "big" (go back and reread if you don't believe that I said it). Today is my Big's 20th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RACHELLE!! :)

I really don't want to sleep through any classes tomorrow, so I'm gonna hit the hay. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Reading for Leisure?

Today was a pretty good day.

COM 225 was amazing, as uzsh. I learned a lot about anger and grief today in that class. It was very interesting. Also, MSU is quickly becoming the top deception research university. That is so incredibly exciting to me, you have no idea! It's like our own version of that show "Lie to Me", right in my own backyard! I wish I could take more COM classes in my coming years at State, but all the good ones are only open to Juniors and Seniors in the colleges in which I am not. I'm actually really upset about that, I wanted to learn more about how people communicate and what it means and all that it entails. But, if I get to learn about Psychology instead of Communications, I'm totally okay with that. Anyway, I absolutely CANNOT wait until Thursdays class! We're going to be learning about jealousy. Why am I excited about that? Because I am a ridiculously jealous person and I want to learn why, how/if I portray it, and how I can control it. If I sleep through this class session, I will be so pissed words can't even begin to describe it. So, yeah, I'm really excited for Thursday.

Psych was dumb, also as uzsh. Wait. I lied. Actually we did learn about some interesting things having to do with memory. Apparently not interesting enough for me to remember though. Haha. I went on stumbleupon.com in class today instead of doing those flashcards and quizzes like I said I was going to do. But, I can always do those tomorrow.

Zack was unable to meet me for lunch, so I just went back to my room to start my paper. I got about half a page done before I had to go to Campus Band. Band was great! Kate sits closer to me and Brad now, so we had a little joke sesh going on for a bit. Well, Brad and I always have that going on, but this time Kate was included. Kate was unable to go to dinner tonight due to studying, (which I guess is actually kind of good because I had to write that stupid paper for WRA) so we rescheduled to Thursday at 9:00pm. Anyway, Brad had yet to have a Puczki today and I had yet to have one in my life, so he decided that we HAD to make a stop as QD on the way home and get some. They were delicious! Thank you, Brad!

When Brad took me home, I got my computer out right away and checked all my email and social networking sites. Then about 20 minutes later I left for the library to write my paper. It's done and not amazing, but it'll have to do.

So, in COM today, my prof told us about a book that shows what the shooters in Columbine were ACTUALLY like. Apparently we've been "sold" the complete opposite of what they were really like. Now, I know it sounds really morbid or whatever, but I kind of really enjoy the psychology of criminals, so the book was pretty much a "must read". In thinking about books, I remembered a book I read in August called "Hunger Games". It was really good and it was coming out with a sequel in September of 2009. This too was considered a "must read". So, in Psych today I went on Barnes&Noble.com to see if they had these books; they did. Today I spent $50.40 on books...that are not for any classes. The books I bought are "Columbine" by Dave Cullen, "Catching Fire" by Suzanne Collins, and "Shutter Island" by Dennis Lehane. You're probably wondering why I bought the book if the movie version of "Shutter Island" is coming out in a few weeks. Well, I don't do scary movies. I just don't. So, I thought I could probably handle the book. We shall see. I'll be sure to let you know how these books are. I'm actually really excited to read them, especially "Columbine".

Tomorrow. Let's see. I have WRA at 8:00am in which I have to turn that paper. Then I have lunch plans with Justin, probably around 11:30am-12:00pm-ish. Then hopefully a quick nap before I start studying for my math quiz. Then I'll go to Math class at 4:10pm and take a quiz. Then Justin and I are going to the mall to get him some shoes and a shirt for Huddle and me some jeans and a top for Campus Band. Then I think we'll probs hang for a little bit. When I get home I may watch a bit of the Olympics and then start reading for COM 225. Oh! I just remember I have to take a quiz for Psych! I have to fit that in somewhere tomorrow. Judging by that, my day should go pretty smoothly.

Btdubs, it's 2:34am and I'm in the library still. I just finished my paper and I thought that since the buses have already stopped running, why not blog? But, I think I'm done now. Everything I needed to say has been said. Oh wait, no it hasn't. Here's what I forgot: I barely thought about Saturday today. A couple times in band (of course), but that's it. I think I'm staring to be okay with it, I just need this person to respond. A quick text may be necessary tomorrow if they don't respond by like 8:00pm. But, yeah, I think I'm coming to terms with it, though I may need to talk to Jonathan about it again. Just to be sure. That's it. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

The Soundtrack to My Life

There are three (technically three) lines from Kid Cudi's song "The Soundtrack to My Life" that describe my life right now. "I got 99 problems and they all bitches." Haha, just kidding, that's not one of them. They are as follows: "I've got some issues that nobody can see" and "And all of these emotions are pouring out of me". I realize that there are only two lines there. There's a reason for that.

Apparently I forgot to blog on Thursday AND this entire weekend. I guess that's where I'll start. And I'll try my best to actually use paragraphs because I apparently don't know what those are.

THURSDAY: I slept through all two of my classes. So I was very unproductive class-wise. But, I did go to the Finance Committee meeting to see what that was all about. And after that I went to PRIDE with Justin. Then I went home and probably stayed up forever. I can't really remember because it was so long ago.

FRIDAY: My dad picked me up around 9:00am. He took me to Wilson really quick so I could turn in my Soc. Sec. card for the caf. Then we went home so I could do some laundry for free, return the stuff Kaitie left, and retrieve the stuff she forgot to bring me. I also briefly converse with Mr.Diroff, my HS band director, when I picked Kaitie up from school. He said that I might be able to come back and be an instructor at band camp this summer!

I really hope the dates for Pre-Season for the Spartan Marching Band cooperate with the date for Pre-Camp for the Zebra Marching Band. I always wanted to come back and instruct. I think it'd be really rewarding and I actually think that I could learn a lot just by teaching. I just hope I teach fundamentals and visual stuff rather than music because my musical abilities aren't exactly great. And visuals would be so cool for this show!

After I picked Kaitie up, we went to the store to try to find me some jeans really quick. We didn;t find any jeans but we found some girl scouts selling cookies. We bought two boxes of Tagalongs. Haha. Then we went home and about 20 minutes later, my dad took me back to school. Then I rushed to get ready for the Dischords concert.

Justin met me and Danielle at our room and then we had to try to battle the WWE traffic to get to the Wharton Center. We thought we were gonna miss the first couple of songs since we were 10 minutes late, but we were just in time! BPW opened the show with a solo of Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance". He was so good!! We heard some old and new songs. One of which featured Michal as the soloist on Michael Buble's "Haven't Met You Yet". He was amazing!! All in all, the show was great!

After the show, we went to Landon for some dinner because we were dying of starvation. We ran into Keine and her friend, Jess, while we were there. So we ate with them, well, we ate with Jess since Keine was gone and on the phone for a good portion of the meal. Haha. But it was totally okay, Jess is nice. Then they left us and we went back to Justin's room for 2.5. We then decided to go to the after-party that the Dischords were having, so we met up with Julie and a few of her friends at the Union and walked over together.

That party was ridiculous! There were a million people there, so we left kinda early. But not before I could get someone mad at me because of a joke I made. It really was a joke and was directed at a friend, but it was taken the wrong way (which is not new). But I tried to fix it by explaining myself and my intent. We shall see the outcome.

Speaking of jokes being taken the wrong way. How 'bout I just stop making jokes that could be taken the wrong way? Good idea. I'm really gonna try hard to work on that, because it's doing wonders to mess up my friendships. If I've learned anything from COM 225, it's that ALL communication is IRREVERSIBLE. You can't take it back. And that sucks. But you sure can try to make up for it. So that's what I'm going to do. So there's that.

Anyway.

SATURDAY: It was a very lazy day, Saturday. I think I slept until about 4:30pm. What can I say? I like sleep. Anyway, I pretty much just stayed in my room and watched some Olympics and stuff for awhile. Then Justin came over so we could meet Jonathan and Jack to walk over to the Tenor Haus together.

The Tenor Haus. When we first arrived, everything was good and there were no problems. The night progressed. I'll just give you key words because I am NOT explaining everything. They are as follows: funnel, Drake, finger cuts, nerf guns, Spring Break, slop, alumni, alone, kisses, slop, fun, pelvic-thrust circle, tears, friends, scraped knees, bad decisions, Jimmy John's, Apple, new friends, fun, and slop. I don't know how I feel about that night yet. At the time, it was good and fun. But looking back, I just don't know. (This is where the song comes into play) There are some things I can't stop thinking about, and I REALLY wish I could. Yeah, I'm just not sure how I feel about it yet. Though, talking to Jonathan made me feel sooooo much better. He's so good at that, and I love him for it.

I also met Jonathan's boyfriend, Jack, on Saturday night. He's sooo nice! I hope we hang out more in the future because he seems like a fun guy. So...shoutout to Jack! Haha.

SUNDAY: I woke up ridiculously early on Sunday. I texted Ryan to call as soon as he could. He called about 5 seconds later (what a best friend!). I desperately needed to talk to him. And we did, for about 2 hours straight. Then my fatigue hit me like a bus and I just HAD to go back to sleep. I did so for about 2 hours. I had some crazy dreams in those two hours. Some of them were actually pertinent to my life, which scares the shit out of me. Anyway, I woke up at 2:00pm so I could go to Justin's concert.

Well, technically, it was Justin, Amy, Rachelle, X, and a bunch of other people's concert. It was really good! I discovered that I kind of love the sound of an oboe, but I still hate piccolos. After the concert, Amy gave me and Justin a ride back to his room so he could change and we could go to a late lunch.

We ran into Rudi on our way to the caf, so we allowed her to eat with us. Just kidding, we totally wanted her there. We ate for about an hour or so and then Justin and I went back to his room. We chatted for a bit and then we decided that we had work to do and we parted ways.

When I got back to my room, I started thinking about stuff. It was not good. I was on the verge of tears. I decided that I could not wait to talk to Jonathan, so I called him and we went to dinner to talk before Kappa. He made me feel so much better about everything. By the end of dinner, I was laughing and I was almost completely okay with everything. We split up really quick to get our money for Convention and then met up to walk to Dem for our Kappa Kappa Psi meeting. I thought Kappa would make me feel even worse than I was feeling, but it actually helped and made me feel even better. After I got home from Kappa, I was in a pretty good mood. I tried to do my readings for WRA, but I just couldn't because I was so tired. But I managed to read about 10 pages while watching the Olympics until about 2:00am. Then Danielle and I went to bed. But, we ended up talking until about 3:30am. It was actually kind of good that we talked about everything we talked about, which was a lot of stuff. Serious stuff. We finally decided to go to sleep at around 3:52am or something.

MONDAY: I woke up at 6:30am so I could shower and be at WRA by 8:00am. I was so tired. I was falling asleep for the whole class. After class, I went home, checked all my email and social networking sites, and then went right to bed. I slept until 3:15ish. Then I went to Math class.

Math is becoming significantly harder. He's flying through everything. I can't get his notes down as fast as he says them. The material is becoming increasingly more difficult to understand. I'm only getting 50% on quizzes and tests. And we have another quiz on Wednesday. This class is going to kill my GPA, as if it didn't already suck enough what with getting a 1.0 in Econ last semester. I'm really starting to freak out about Math now. Hopefully my friends can help me out. I'd go to office hours, but his teaching method just doesn't work for me. I really hope I can figure something out.

After that class, I went to the Union to maybe get some work done before meeting Justin for dinner. I got no work done, but I was okay with that. I met Justin around 7:15pm in Landon. Kim was there too, so she ate with us. Dinner was pretty good. But, I had to get stuff done and so did Justin, so we parted ways once again. I went to the Union (because they have an unlimited amount of free Mountain Dew). I tried to get my paper going and I kinda did, I just didn't get as far as I wanted to. But, I started thinking about things again and had to talk to Ryan. Then Jess (my Jess, not Keine's) called and invited me to go to Coldstone with her and Zack. I needed to be cheered up, so I went. That was pretty good. Then I went home and called Mark. Ryan called right after I hung up with Mark and I still needed to talk to him about a lot of stuff, so we were on the phone for about an hour and a half. After that, I went on Facebook and such for a while. Then I remembered that I had a bunch of Psych assignments to do, so I did those. And now, at 4:14am, here I am.

I have class at 10:20am tomorrow, but I don't have to get up until 9:30am. I am really anticipating this class because we are learning about things that are incredibly useful in my everyday life. So, I really don't want to sleep through it...again. Then I have Psych which should be boring, but I'm just gonna do my flashcards and take my quizzes, so at least I'll be being productive. After class, I have about 4.5 hours before band starts. I might see if Zack wants to grab a late lunch in Shaw after our classes. When that's done, I'm going straight to my room to finish writing this paper for WRA. Then I have band. After that, I'm hopefully having dinner with Jonathan and Kate. On a side note, I just realized that if Jonathan went by Jon, then I would be having dinner with Jon and Kate tomorrow. Haha. Sorry, anyway, after dinner I'm going to continue writing my paper and I'm staying up and working on it until it's done. Yeah. So, that's my day tomorrow.

But, for now, I must sleep. It's either going to be a very uneventful sleep without dreaming or a very "thoughtful" and "self-discovering" sleep with dreaming. I can just tell. I kind of hope it's the former though. Sleep is for relaxing, not thinking. Well, I'm off to bed.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Music to listen to:

"Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble'

"Soundtrack to My Life" by Kid Cudi

"Bed" by J. Holiday

"Fallin'" by J. Holiday

"Tears of a Clown" by Smokey Robinson

(That's it. And, yes, that format was inspired by Millie's blog, Spontaneity is Key)

Surprise! Great Mood!

It's 3:43am and I'm suddenly in a great mood and just got a burst of energy! So, let me just blog until it passes. lol

I did not blog about Monday OR Tuesday yet. And I still have to write about today. What am I doing with my life? How can I not blog about the great past few days I've had? Guess I'll just have to do it now. :)

Monday: I had class, then I had to go to Wonders for my Compliance Training at 1:00pm. It was so weird not meeting Justin for lunch, as I usually do that on Mondays and Wednesdays. Anyway, I got done with that at around 3:00pm, so I just sat in Wilson until Math started at 4:10pm. After Math, Vicky and I decided to go to the Service Committee meeting to see what that's all about. I'm glad we did that because now I have a better idea of what the committee does. When that was done, I just went back to my room and...did nothing. Why did I do that? No idea. Whatev, it was a good day.

Tuesday: Tuesday was such a good day! I had COM 225, then I went to the Union to grab some lunch really quick before Psych. There, I ran into Danielle and Andy, so that was fun. But, I had to scarf down my food in order to make it to class on time....which I did not do. I was like 5 minutes late, but so were 30 other people, so it's NBD. And because I've learned everything this class is teaching me, I just went on stumbleupon.com and learned a bunch of completely irrelevant but totally interesting facts. haha. Then I went home to rest up really quick before giving blood. Yes, I got to give blood! My iron was the right amount and they didn't even have any trouble finding a vein! Those things are usually a problem for me, mostly the iron thing. I've attempted to give blood 5 times and have only succeeded twice due to low iron and sneaky veins. I'm rambling, sorry, ANYWAY! After donating, I went back to my room to rest for a bit. Then I went to the Union to have dinner with Keine, which was great. We argued about accents and the cause of thunder (which is actually caused by lightning, I was unaware). Then I had to go to Campus Band. That, too, was great. After band, I was supposed to go to Late Night with Kate and Jonathan, but Jonathan had to study for a test. So, Kate and I decided to go back to her house for dinner (Keith made pasta!). Kate, Keith, Sam, Laura, Myc, Sunchips, and I all ate some of Keith's delicious homemade pasta and watched the basketball game. It was a great time. Then Kate took me home, where I attempted to read for my classes the next day. Tuesday was a really great day, I haven't laughed that much in one day in so long. I loved that day. :)

Wednesday aka Today: This was a good day as well. My 8:00am class was cancelled due to the extreme amount of snow we got. So I got to sleep for an extra 4 hours before meeting Justin for lunch in the Union. Lunch was great, as I hadn't seen Justin in what seemed like forever (it was actually only 3 days lol). After lunch, I went back to room and went back to sleep. But, I overslept and was late to my Math class, but only by 20 minutes, so it was ok. I had a quiz, I think I did ok on it. I raced back to my room to shower before meeting the Mello and Tenor Freshmen for another food date at the Union. After eating, we went over to Open Mic night to watch Kristin sing. She was great! We stayed there until about 10:00pm, then Kristin and I walked to Case. I met Zack for Late Night in Wilson, where we ran into Kate (I guess she works Late Night at Wilson lol). We ate and talked and were literally THE last ones to leave the caf. Haha, that always happens with me and Zack. I got back to my room at about 1:00am and discovered my roommate already in bed. I haven't talked to her/seen her all day, it's weird.

Thursday looks like it's gonna be another one of these good days. I have 2 classes spanning from 10:20am-2:30pm. Then I'm free until the Finance Committee meeting at 7:30pm at the Union. When that's done, and if time permits, I'm gonna run over to Landon for PRIDE. We'll be making Valentine's and such! So, Thursday should be fun. Maybe I'll see if Zack wants to grab a late lunch after class; hopefully Shaw will have their delicious "Fish Nuggets"! Seriously, Shaw has really good fish nuggets and fish sliders. I find myself craving those and a pizza wrap from Shaw all the time. It's actually kind of sad. But, I digress.

I also can't wait for this weekend. Zack, Danielle, and I are going to see the Spartan Dischords on Friday night! I love the Dischords, their concerts are so fun. Then my dad is picking me up after the concert so I can get a bunch of stuff Kaitie forgot to bring me and so I can giver her all the stuff she left here from the weekend. Then Saturday I'm thinking about taking my brother, Nick, out for the day and hopefully visiting with Ryan before I go back to school. Saturday night is going to be great fun! I'm coming back to school a day early for the festivities of Saturday night. Then on Sunday I'm going to see Justin and Amy perform in the Concert Band concert at the Wharton Center. And I then have a Kappa meeting at 8:00pm that evening. See? Great weekend too!

But, I DO have class tomorrow morning...rather, in 6 hours. So I should probably go to bed. Good night, everyone! I hope your week is going as great as mine is!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

I Don't Think They Get It...

Actually, I didn't get it myself until very recently. You're probably wondering what I'm talking about. I'll tell you: friendship and it's level of importance to me. My friends are pretty much my family. We even fight like a family does, I mean, let's be real. Anyway, I've thought of my friends as my family since probably my freshman year of high school. But, it wasn't until a few days ago that I realized just how important they are to me and just how much I would do for them.

Picture this: It's 1:30am. My sister, roommate, and roommate's sister are fast asleep. I'm climbing the ladder to my loft. Then my phone vibrates alerting me to a text message. My friend tells me they broke up with their significant other. Without even thinking about it, I jump down, throw some pants on, and head out the door to comfort this friend....a 25 minute walk away in the freezing cold. I just love my friend that much. Okay, now I always told myself that I would do that, but I guess I didn't really believe it. Then I did it and it just made me think how important my friends are to me and how much I really love them.

I don't think my friends understand just how much I would do for them. If it's between consoling a friend at 2:00am and get sleep for my exam that's at 8:00am, the friend wins. That makes me sound like a bad student, but I'm really not, I promise. If my friend needs a place to stay for a few nights, my futon is always open to them. If a friend needs help with school, I will do my best to teach what I know or find someone who knows better. The only thing I probably couldn't help with is a monetary issue; I am lacking in that area as well. Haha. But, yeah. I am always there to listen when a friend needs it. I'm just there for my friends. Accept it. Haha.

I just don't think my friends have realized all that yet. They'll get it though. I feel like there was a lot of rambling in this entry. Moral of the story: I love my friends to death and will always be there for them.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

P.S. Sorry for all the cheese, I just had to make all that known.

Lil' Sibs and Super Bowl XLIV!

This was a very eventful weekend, I must say. Kaitie and Deanna came up to visit for Lil' Sibs Weekend. We did many things together.

They arrived around 4:30pm on Friday (I only know the time because I was right in the middle of watching Ellen). We kinda just sat around in our room until about 6:00pm when we left for dinner at SnyPhi. We had to make a quick stop at the Union so I could give Keith the bullet I made for Kate and so Danielle could get some moneda. We arrived to a half-full SnyPhi around 7:00ish. That dinner was so ridiculous. It was full of food "falling" and laughter. After SnyPhi, we went back to our room for 2.5 to see if Danielle got a bid or not (she didn't, sad face) and then we left for Wells to see "Where the Wild Things Are". The movie was terrible, do not see it. It did not at all resemble the book I remember. After the movie, we went to Rather to get some free movies from the RHA office. We got "A League of Their Own", "Bend It Like Becham", "Uptown Girls" (R.I.P. Brittany Murphy), and something else. But what did we end up watching when we got back to the room? Spice World. Yep, a movie I already owned. I mean, it wasn't a bad decision because we love the Spice Girls, it was just pointless to rent movies (even if they were free). Then we went to bed. Actually, I had slept until 2:30pm so I stayed up to watch "Grey's Anatomy" and "Private Practice" on hulu. Around 1:30am, I received a text from Justin informing me that I was needed. So, naturally, I threw on some pants and left for the 24-Hour Biggby Coffee to meet up with him. I discovered that Nicole works there, she also made me one of the best Hot Chocolate's I have ever had (thanks Nicole!). Justin and I talked for about an hour and a half and then decided that it was late and we had to go. I got home and went to bed around 3:00am.

On Saturday, we decided to hit up Meridian Mall. But apparently I was taking too long to shower so Deanna and Danielle left without me and Kaitie. Whatev, we hit up the Union for 2.5 before meeting them. A visit to the foodcourt was the first order of business for us, so that's what we did. There we ran into Wings and Marker! I love seeing my friends at the mall, I just love it. After our brief convo and lunch, we made a stop at the Campus Den and loaded Kaitie up with some MSU gear ($76.56 worth). Kaitie and I also took a "ride" in the Hurricane Simulator, so much fun!! Then we went back to the room. Justin came over to play with us before Amy picked us up to go on our Squad 51 Date at Altu's, the Ethiopian restaurant. Ethiopian, not for me. I tried it, didn't like it. But I tried it, Kaitie was surprised the world didn't end (I don't try things). Then Danielle, the sweetheart that she is, took us all to the Dairy Store for ice cream. Again, so good! Then Amy dropped me, Kaitie, and Justin off at Jess's apt for a Mexican Fiesta. That was fun. We met Jess's friend, Mariana, she's pretty cool. Then we made our trip home around midnight. And because Jess lives in Cedar Village, we HAD to make a stop at Insomnia on the way back. The journey was cold and long, but we made it home around 1:00am. I had to go to bed right when we got back because I had Kappa at 1:15pm...and that's early for me.

We woke up around noon on Sunday and just sat and conversated for about 45 minutes before I had to get ready to go meet Jonathan to walk over to the music building. So, I met up with Jonathan at 1:00pm and we made the journey to room 245 of the Music Building. We got a lot done at Kappa today. At least, I think so. I don't know how much is "a lot" for them, but for me it was. I have to decide what committee I want to be on. That's gonna be a tough one. Eh, I'll make it. Oh, and did I mention that I have the best Big ever? Not only did she buy me 51 Nerf bullets, but she said she's going to buy my Rec bar for KKPsi. I love her (thanks Rachelle!). Kaitie and Deanna had gone home by the time I got back from Kappa, so I tried to do some studying before going to Sean and Bryan's Super Bowl party. But, I found my Spazzys CD and just couldn't get anything done because I was singing too much. Oh and then RENT came on Danielle's iPod..... Anyway, I left to meet up with Justin at around 5:30pm and then Chrissy picked us up from his room at about 6:15pm. We missed kick-off, but it's no big. It was really fun! Lot's of deep-fried food and a Saints win later, we had to go. I got to my room around 10:00pm. I went on Facebook and then took a brief nap, then I went to the library to get some studying done. Actually, I'm doing that now...at 3:30am. I got a lot done, so I'm gonna say "deuces" to the piece now.

Tomorrow I have class from 8-9:50am and then I'm going back to my room to sleep. Then I start my training for the caf in at 1:00pm in Wonders. I'm excited to finally start making money! I get done with that at 3:00pm and then I'm just gonna chillax until Math at 4:10pm. Or maybe have lunch with Kristin if she's off work. After Math, I'm supposed to be helping Amy study for her Psych exam at SnyPhi. Then I'll probably go back to the library to do some reading for COM 225. But, for now, I'm done. Good night, friends!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Oh hey, Exam Week!

This week is apparently exam week. I had three exams and a rough draft due this week. The paper was due on Monday and I had a Math exam the same day. Then I had my COM 225 and PSY 101 exams today. The stuff on Monday was terrible, but the exams today were AMAZING!

I woke up at 8:50am after about 3.5 hours of sleep and took a shower. Then I headed over to Wells to take my COM exam. I was afraid I wouldn't do well because I missed the review and I didn't read all of Chapter 3. But when I read the test questions, I discovered that they were word for word from the book. So, I did really well on that exam. Then I had about 2 hours before my next exam so I went to the library to do some last minute reviewing. I then hopped on a bus to Vet Med to get my exam on. There were 30 questions on this test; I might have missed two at the most. It was the easiest Psych exam I have ever taken in my life. Naturally, I finished that bad boy in record time and was back in my room by about 1:30pm. I was planning on being productive and cleaning my room, but Facebook went and ruined that.

I also discovered today that I'm still being charged for a class I dropped. Why? Because it was a partial-term class, which means that the date to drop it and still get a full refund is earlier than other classes. So I had to email my old HB Adviser and ask her if she could back-date it for me so that I don't have to pay for a class I'm not taking. Hopefully she'll do it, I don't see any reason not to.

After all that was done, I decided to take a nap before going to PRIDE with Justin. But, 20 minutes after I lay down, Danielle barges in, turns on the light, and starts just throwin' shit around. THEN she decides that it would be a good time to Skype her mom and little brother...WHILE I'M SLEEPING!! She finally left 15 minutes before I had to be up to leave. So much for a nap. Ugh, sometimes I don't know what to do with her. Anyway, I got up and went to Landon for dinner with Justin. Then I had to take care of a special task...involving Nerf Gun bullets. Then we went to PRIDE in which we watched Hairspray. I love that movie. And now, here I am. I'm thinking about watching either Teen Mom or Jersey Shore. MTV just feels right at this point in time. Haha.

This weekend is going to be so fun! Kaitie is coming up for Lil Sibs weekend tomorrow. We're probably gonna just chillax and maybe see a movie at Wells. Then on Saturday I believe we will be hitting up the mall (even though I absolutely HATE the mall). At 6:00pm my squad is going on a "Squad Date" to Altu's, the Ethiopian restaurant. When that's done Kaitie and I will be going over to Jess's for a "Mexican Fiesta"! That will most def be fun. Then she's going home at some point on Sunday. I have Kappa at 2:00pm (pushed up due to the Superbowl) and then hopefully something will be going on after that. Football games are always fun with a bunch of people, I love Superbowl viewing parties. So, yeah, it should be a fun weekend.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

About Yesterday

I didn't have any time to blog yesterday as it was so busy towards the end, which is when I usually do all my blogging. It started off slow, but then it really picked up around 4:10pm. I'll start from the beginning.

I woke up at 10:30am to have lunch with Jonathan at 11:00am. Lunch was fun, as is everything I do with Jonathan. Afterwards, I went back to my room and was planning on studying for my COM 225 exam, but I wound up on Facebook and then eventually taking a nap. I woke up and left for Wilson at 3:30pm. When I got there, I went to the Dining Services office thing to set up a time for my Compliance Training. That took all of two seconds, so I had to wait in the lecture hall for 25 minutes for Math to start. Speaking of Math, we got our exams back. I did not do well. I made stupid mistakes, but some were legitimately incorrect. Next time will be better, no doubt. Anyway, after Math I went over to the Union to try to get some studying in before our Tenor Mello Freshmen Food Date, but was unsuccessful. I discovered at this "food date" thing that the Mellos are HILARIOUS! They're so cool, hopefully we'll all hang out more. Also in the Union that night was craft night in which there was button-making, so we made a couple buttons. But, I kinda had to skip out early for a study date with Amy. When I got to SnyPhi, Amy said that Danielle and Andy had just gone in, so we ate with them. When Danielle and Andy left, we started cracking down on Psychology. We were very productive and relearned a lot of information for our exams. We left SnyPhi around 10:00 to get Amy's car from the Stadium lot and then go home. When I got back to my room I had to take a little Psych quiz that was due by 11:59pm, so I kinda rushed as I started at 11:00pm. After my quiz, I made the mistake of going on Facebook...for an hour. I left for the library at around 12:47am. I arrived there around 1:10ish, got a breakfast sandwich and cranberry juice, and then commenced the studying of COM 225. I turned on some Frank Ticheli in hopes of tuning out the super loud people in the library, it worked for the most part. I did not leave the library until 4:27am. I got so much done though. On the cold walk home from the library, the Night Owl bus was passing by me and stopped to ask if I needed a ride. Of course I accepted and was home much faster than I would've been had I walked. I pretty much passed out as soon as I got into my room though. It was a very productive night.

P.S. The best song EVER to study to: "An American Elegy" by Frank Ticheli

Do it, you won't be disappointed.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

"Crystal Meth! Very nice drug!"

...exclaimed my Psych professor. Hahaha

Today was a little rough for me. I slept through my fave class, in which we were reviewing for an exam. So I hopped in the shower and then went to Psych. I was feeling really down for some reason again, so that's not good. I called Ryan on the way there but we couldn't really talk because there were so many people in my class. I learned more stuff that I already knew in my Psych class. Then I hopped on a bus to go home. Danielle and I went to the Lansing Mall when I got back. We were on a bus longer than we were at the actual mall. The 1 bus is so creepy, I do not recommend riding it...ever. When we got home (4 hours later) I had to rush to get my Tenor and catch a bus to the Union. But the bus took FOREVER to get there so I just walked. But I was too late to meet Justin so I had to go right to Campus Band. I was pissed at this point. Band was great though. Myc and Brad cheered me up. :) Then I went to visit Justin to give him a hug (it's Hug A Gay Day today). Then I went to the Union for some eats and walked home. The rest of the night was pretty good.

I officially hate CATA. I waited forever for that bus to come and it almost made me late. We had to go through ghetto Lansing to get to the mall. There are super creepy people on the 1 bus. And the bus driver from the CATA Station to Brody cut the line off at me, so I had to wait for the next bus. I hate CATA! Oh, and I bought a bus pass today (contradictory?).

Tomorrow is almost guaranteed to be better than today. My 8:00am is cancelled. I'm eating lunch with Jonathan at 11:00am (he has a 12:40 in Conrad soit had to be early-ish). Then I get to chillax until 4:10pm when I have to go to Math. The at 6:45pm, I'm going on a Tenor-Mello Freshmen Food Date. It's going to be great to meet all the Freshmen Mellos! Then at 8:30 I'm meeting Amy in SnyPhi for diner and to study for our Psych exams. Doesn't that sound great? Fo rull.

It is now 1:02am. I don't have to go to bed yet. I might catch up on Grey's and Private Practice. I might do some Psych flashcards. I might read for COM 225. I might just go on Facebook forever. I might do a small arts and crafts project for a select few friends. I just can't decide! I'll figure it out. Deuces!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

The Green-Eyed Monster Sucks

I don't know how I feel about today. I mean, all the events of today were pretty good, but the feelings I had throughout the day were just really weird. I'll talk about the events first and then I'll dive into feelings.

I went to WRA at 8:00am today feeling soo tired. We had a pop quiz on readings that I didn't do, but I still managed to do pretty okay on it. Then we had to turn in our rough drafts for our papers. Mine sucked so bad, I was so ashamed to actually hand that in. Oh well, it's a ROUGH draft, right? Anyway, we got done actually learning about 25 minutes before class is officially over, so Dr.V decided to play an ice-breaker game. We went around the room and said our names and an interesting fact about ourselves. Mine was how I lit both of my hands on fire that one night. Good times, good times. Then we were done, so I went to the library to review for my review for my exam (yes, I meant what I wrote). Then I met Justin in the Union for lunch, as uzsh. I had some time to kill between Justin's departure for class and when I had to be at Dem, so I just Facebooked for awhile. After "chatting" with Zack and Amy for a bit, I headed over to Dem to help Millie with the uniforms. We waited for about 40 minutes for the truck to get there, but it was cool. We got the uniforms hung up in record time though! Then I had to book it to the Union for my study sesh with Keine. We went over a bunch of problems that were going to be on my exam and when we were done I felt very prepared for my exam. But we did kinda take a lot of time to do all that, so I almost had to run to Wilson; I couldn't even stop and talk to Kate when I passed by her on my way there. But I took my exam and I think I did pretty okay on it, with the exception of the problem I had to figure out Simple Interest in. I then went to the Union (again) to chillax before meeting Justin for dinner in Landon. Apparently a bunch of my friends were dining in Landon tonight: me, Justin, Keine, Michal, Jonathan, X, Hannah, and Kim all ate together. Then Hannah, Justin, and I went back to his room to watch Brokeback Mountain (so good). When that was over I met up with Zack and Jess to go to BDubs. Then I came home, threw in some laundry, and promptly called my best friend, Ryan.

The "feelings" thing is kinda weird and you won't understand it because I'm not going to reveal that much. I just want to get it out there. I felt kind of stupid for feeling all pissy last night, but then I let it go and was feeling pretty good. I felt pretty great up until around dinnertime. My old jealous self came out and pissed me off and actually made me a little sad. But I tried not to think about it and just let it go, so the rest of my night was happy again. Then I got home and was reminded and got upset again. So I called Ryan because I hadn't heard from him in 3 WEEKS, which is unacceptable, and because he always knows what to do. I only got to talk to him for about a half an hour because he really needed to sleep, but he really helped a lot. I can't wait for 11:40am tomorrow when I can call him again...and he can help me some more. Anyway, as of right now my emotional status is a mixture of happy and enlightened. I think that's a good state to be in.

Now, tomorrow. I have a review for an exam in COM 225 at 10:20am and then I have PSY 101 from 12:40-2:30pm. Then I'm going to the mall with Danielle to pick her out something to wear for Rush. Then chillaxing before Campus Band. And I think after band, Kate and I (and maybe Jonathan) are gonna go to Late Night (I think she said something about making that a regular thing). Then I get to sleep...or stay up late. It really doesn't matter because my 8 O'Clock WRA is cancelled. But right now I need to go get my laundry and then get to bed. Good night!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie

Oops, I Forgot

I totally forgot about blogging this weekend. Oh well, I guess it's time to catch up now.

FRIDAY:

I don't have any classes on Friday so I usually sleep in til forever. But this Friday I had to make up a bunch of Psych homework because I was added in late. So I got up at noon and did that for a few hours. I soon got bored with it though because I've learned it twice before so I just kinda stopped. I also had to go to Keine's room to get a bow and arrow. Sadly, all three of the arrows broke within 5 minutes so it was pretty much useless. So we just went to dinner, at which she made me try Pierogies and Barbeque Chicken Pizza. The latter was good, the former: just not for me. Later that night I went to Jess's apt for a movie night with her. We watched The Hangover and Animal House and did not go to sleep until 4:52am. It was a chill day, but a good one at that.

SATURDAY:

Jess woke me up at noon because she had to go up north to visit her sick uncle. So I was home by like 12:30. Danielle and I were supposed to go to SnyPhi to get our Reefer Madness tickets at this time, but her lazy ass would not get out of bed until 2:30. So, I just did some ChaCha work until she finally got up. Then we took a bus over to SnyPhi, ate some of the "best food on campus", and went to the RCAH Office to get our tickets. We had to wait for 25 minutes for someone to get there, but we got 'em. After finally getting our tickets, we went over to the mall to get some of those card-carrier things and look at shoes. Then we went to the Union to get some food. Justin met up with us there and we sat and chatted for about an hour and a half. Then we convinced Justin that he had to come see Reefer Madness with us. He bought his ticket 4 hours after us and he got a way better seat! What?! Whatev, we still had a great view. Reefer was so funny! I'm glad we went and supported Michal, he was so good (he played my fave president, FDR!). After the show we went back to our room and I attempted to do some more Psych, but failed when I turned on SNL. I tried Psych one last time and ended up on Facebook, as uzsh (that's "usual" without the "ual" haha). I ended up in a convo about my future black husband and alcoholism with Keine. But I had to tear myself away from the computer at 2:30ish so I could wake up early and finish all my Psych.

SUNDAY:

I woke up at noon, showered, and promptly started my Psych hdub. Ok, so I actually checked all my emails and social networking sites first, but then I totally started it. I thought it would take me FOREVER to get all of it done, but because I already knew most of it I could just skip ahead to the quizzes and still pass. I was done by 5:00pm. Just in time to grab dinner in the Brody caf with Justin before heading over to Bruce's movie night. We were the only one's at Bruce's because apparently everyone bailed on him, those jerks. So we stayed and watched Superbad with him before I had to meet Jonathan to go our very first Kappa meeting as active members! The meeting was good but apparently it ran hella-long because the older Actives were getting antsy. And Sam made all of the new Actives little boxes to put our Active Pins in! They're so cute, mine's sitting on my desk lookin' all good and stuff. (Thanks Sam!) So, I left Kappa in a pretty good mood. But when I got back to my room I just got pissed. I don't know why. I just did. And on top of being pissed I had to write a rough draft for a paper that was due the next day. The pissy mood lasted all of two hours. Then I finished my paper (but not really because it was terrible). And I totally forgot that my WRA Professor, Dr.V, wants all of our writings to be typed and printed. So I had to trek to the library at 1:45am to print out a shitty paper. But, on the walk there I was inspired to write my previous post, "MSU, We Love Thy Shadows...". So my Sunday ended pretty great too.

In the end, it was a pretty good weekend. Why did I ever think it was lame? No idea. Well I gotta go meet Justin for dinner now. Bye!

Hugs and Kisses,

Ellie